LGBTQIAP+ Milestones: Book 4

Confusion of my Sexuality

By Laura3832

~

On April the 6th 2018, I came out of the closet as bisexual. Although i wasnt sure i still told my parents and friends. Luckily my step mum was really understanding so i cried of happiness. But i cried also because I wasnt sure if i was bi sexual or lesbian. I didnt tell anyone that though. about a week later i had a REAL think about who i am. I had more confidence that i told my step mum and posted it on face book. i found out (thanks to my anxiety) i felt i had to be straight also. But i was just forcing myself to be. Before that i even dated a guy but it didnt feel right. When i told all my friends that i am lesbian, questions flooded in from them. It wasnt bad questions though but i was things like,
""why did you date a guy?""
""Am i hot?""
""who do think is the hottest in the class?""
most of these questions came from girls.
I eventually got my haircut to my neck and also got an undercut because i felt like i have to live up to the lesbian stereotypes.
I still have nights where i think i am pan sexual but there is no use now since ive already changed it.
It has now been 3 weeks since this happened and I have to go back to high school with my new haircut and people facing me after what i posted on facebook. I am scared deep down but i have great confidence from my family.