Senseless Abyss (Zero-One Fanfic)

-Chapter 16

**Trigger warning for those who aren't able to handle violence towards women in any way. Please don't read further if you cannot handle that it and it bothers you/triggers you. Thank you for understanding**

-Chapter 16: Nightmare

I close my eyes as my body throbs, aching badly. I hardly slept last night because of the pain. This isn't what I wanted. This is never what I wanted.

"Juli."

I open my eyes and sit up a bit, looking ahead. "Y-yes?"

He steps into view, moving around the wall where the closet in his house is. "You will come back home by the end of your work day. It isn't a something you can possibly do, but you have to do." He places his hand on his tie, adjusting it to make it straight. So, it is an order.

I nod slowly. "I will do so. I won't stay out late."

"Good. Make sure to put on your dress when you go out today. I got you it last night and it will make you look absolutely stunning despite the new face," he says, bossing me around. "Don't forget your jacket either."

"I won't." I really won't.

He moves towards me and he leans in, placing his lips on my forehead. "I will see you later, my love." He looks me in the eyes. "Take care, dear. I love you so much."

I look down, nodding. "I know that you do."

"Take your time adjusting to your life again. I know it must hard to suddenly be thrown back into the old life you had with me, but we have to try to become a good couple again." He touches my head gently, patting me on the top of it. "I'm sorry about last night, Juli."

"It is fine, Allen. Take care," I say, my voice coming out weakly.

Allen removes his hand from my head and I look up as he turns away. He moves to the exit of the room, turning. He's gone. He's finally going away.

I get off the bed and step up to the mirror on the wall that he keeps, looking into it. Purple skin is all over me right now. My body doesn't even look like it is my body anymore. Just the other day...I just looked so normal.

It is my fault that I look like this right now. I did this to myself by angering him, right? I was never a good wife to him and I never will be one to him.

"I'm so sorry..." I close my eyes, tears going down my face. I can't believe that I am in this situation once again. I don't even have her face anymore. Why did I have to be born with Elise's face in the first place?

I open my eyes, looking at my face. I don't look like her anymore. I don't know why he wants me back in the first place. We can't just undo the surgery I got to remove her most important features.

"Stop...I need to stop..." I swallow hard. "You got to work and you're not going to become that same woman again. You have to become stronger again. You have to be Mari again."

I built myself u only to be knocked back down. How am I able to be this weak again? Why am I being so weak once again?

I bring my hands to my face and wipe it, getting rid of the tears. I need to go now. I'll be okay in a bit. I'll be able to be free just for a little while.

I turn to my bed and look at the clothes he left on it. I reach out, picking it up. The dress is light blue with white lace. It is a pretty looking dress, but it isn't my style. This is more of Elise's style, not mine. I'll just have to tolerate it for now.

I look at the blue matching jacket and the blue heels. He even put out stockings for me to put on. This is way too feminine looking for me and doesn't match me at all.