Senseless Abyss (Zero-One Fanfic)

-Chapter 184

-Chapter 184: In the End, We Can't Make It 

I look up from the pair of feet in front of my, my eyes going right to Aruto Hiden's face. 

Aruto looks the same as he did that one time I saw him, which is probably because he hasn't done much to change his appearance. His clothes are clean and he doesn't smell disgusting. My guess is that he went home and cleaned them and put them back on. He's holding onto the clothes because it reminds him of Izu. 

"What do you want, Aruto?" I ask, my voice low. Let's get this talk over with so I can move on with my life and not seem him like this again. It hurts to see him and it also makes me upset to see him. 

Aruto looks me over. "How are you doing right now?" he asks me, his voice a bit hoarse. It seems like he has seen better days with how his voice sounds.

"That isn't your concern right now." I just came back from a visit with a doctor of mine and they gave me something I need to look at immediately. "I'm not going to join your side and share your vision of the future. I refuse to put Horobi out of his robot misery." 

I'm not going to stop Horobi from living because there has to be a better solution. Horobi can stop doing what he is doing, but he just needs something to open his eyes. I'm not going to get through to him, so someone else has to. Horobi doesn't have an open mind right now due to all that bad data he got from the Ark. 

"Why can't you be at my side? Don't you love me?" Aruto asks me, sounding hurt. Why does he have to sound that way? 

I look away, swallowing hard. "I loved the sweet man you were before this. I can't love you right now, Aruto. You took my son from me right in front of my face." How can I be at his side when he has done all that he has done with the Ark's power? Shouldn't he get Izu justice the proper way? 

"You've only know him for a short period of time and you didn't create him. Mari, it was an accident. I didn't mean to hit him with my finisher. You know that he went in front of it to take the hit for him." He's putting this on Horobi now? 

"So?" I look back at him. "You understood it before didn't you? You were fine with Jin being my son until Horobi popped into things again! You're the one who told me to go to Horobi and see what I wanted!"

He's the one who made this mess right now. If he didn't tell me to go back to Horobi, I would probably be at his side and making sure everything is alright. But that isn't how things ended up for us. We're enemies right now at this moment.

"Mari, Jin can be fixed. I didn't mean to destroy him," Aruto says, being logical. I know he's right about that, but that doesn't matter to me. I saw him die. "He was brought back before wasn't he? I know it doesn't change what I did, but he's not gone for good. I didn't mean what I said about you knowing him for a short time. That came out the wrong way." 

"You can't undo his death!" I shout, tears filling my eyes. "I saw him die right in front of me just like how I saw Horobi die. I can't stand the thought of living in this world without either one of them. Do you know how painful it is for me to live without Jin right now?" How am I supposed to just get over seeing Jin die like that? He was so damaged and broken, but also so happy to save Horobi from death. 

"Mari..." His face softens. "I didn't mean to kill him. Really, I didn't mean to hit him with that. You know that I didn't mean to." 

"But you did! You got so lost in your revenge plans that you disregarded any sense of logic in this world! You wouldn't have stopped even if you knew he would be there. What would you have done if I tossed myself between you and Horobi? You would have killed me if that would have happened."