Once In A Lifetime

Long Road

Melissa's POV

I was scared. I felt a few contractions once we got to the hospital. I was scared. The doctors told us I was indeed in early labor. They were gave me medication to stop the contractions but they said I would be admitted and more then likely be there till I gave birth as I needed to be on strict bed rest. They said I needed to be watched to make sure I didn't go into labor again. Seth was trying to be strong for me but I could tell with his little tells, he was just as scared. They got me into a room where I would stay the rest of my pregnancy. I hated the thought of spending weeks, months without my boys. Once they got me settled in, the doctor walked in. He asked, "So, how do you feel?"

"Well, the contractions stopped." I told him.

He gave me a small smile and said, "That is a good thing. It too early for your baby to come." Then he frowned and looked down. He looked back at us and said, "I will not sugar coat it, but there is a real risk to your child here. With your water breaking, there is a chance for infection and if that happens, we will have to deliver. And if we do deliver in the next few weeks, I will not lie to you, the likelihood of your child surviving is slim."

I teared up as I heard this. Seth then asked, "What can we do?"

"Keep her stress level down. And to make sure she stays in bed. We will monitor her to make sure there is no infections and make sure she doesn't have contractions again. We will give heer steroids to speedy up the process of your baby's development. It's all we can do now." He looked at us in all seriousness. "I promise you, we will do whatever it takes to make sure this baby will stay in there till we know that the baby will survive."

I nodded in sadness. Seth said to the doctor, softly, "Thank you."

He gave a slight nod and walked out. As soon as the door was closed, I fell apart. Seth was quickly at my side and held me. "Please, baby. You heard the doctor, no stress."

"I can't help it." I sobbed. "I'm so scared. If she comes now, she won't survive. I can't do this again. I can't wait to see if our child will survive. I barely made it through after the accident with James. I almost lost him then. I can't go through this again. The unknown. It's too much."

"You heard the doctor, love. They will do everything it takes to keep her inside till she will be okay enough to survive out here. I know this is difficult but we will get through this. We have each other. We have gotten through so much worse. It will be okay." He said, sincerely.

I nodded as I slowly calmed. I prayed he was right.

A few weeks passed and I was anxious. I couldn't stand sitting in the hospital. I also missed my boys. I was short with the nurses and Seth. Seth would stay every other night with me as the other nights he would stay home with the boys. He tried to split the time and be a wonderful husband and father, I knew it was wearing on him. But I couldn't help my attitudes. Seth walked in after the nanny got to the house and smiled. "Hey, baby." I just rolled my eyes at him. He frowned at me. "Please, baby, don't act like that."

"What took you so long?" I was pissed.

"I had to wait for the nanny. You know how it is. The boys are on summer break now. It wasn't like when they were in school. I thought you understood that." He said, almost sadly.

I noticed he was hurt. "I'm sorry, Seth. I am just so tired of being here. I am alone when you go home and stuck in this god forsaken place. And I miss my boys." I started to cry. "I don't mean to get like that. I just want to go home with the boys. I want to be with my babies. This sucks." I cried harder. "And my hormones are not helping the situation at all."

He moved over to me as he smiled. "Love, it's okay. I understand you are so tired of being here. Remember you are here to make sure our little girl get here safely. I know it sucks and I wish I could trade places with you, but I can't. I try to be here as much as I can. It's not roses for me. I am by myself taking care of our boys. God, I never realized how much you did until now. You make it look so easy. You are one hell of a woman. I am struggling at home. I want you home too. I feel so lost without you there. I have no clue how to do this all. But I get why I need to take over but now I see how much you do. I am proud to call you mine and wish I could be more like you." I looked at him as I felt a little better. "I also hate sleeping in our bed alone. I cannot wait for the nights I get to stay here and sleep next to you."