Dire

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We laid there silent for awhile until Harry broke the silence "do you want to come back with me?"

"please."

"We need to figure somethings out but if you really want to come with me I'll take you"

"Please take me"

"do you want to say goodbye to your family before we go?"

"my siblings are probably asleep but I would like to write them a note and kiss them before"

"of course." He nodded

I went over to my desk and wrote a note. Before going to kiss them while they were asleep. I packed a bag of anything I wanted to bring with me.
I told Harry we could walk out the front door. that everyone was asleep. Right when we were about to walk out my mother came around the corner. she starred at me then Harry then my bag. Right there I saw it.

The sigh of relief that she wasn't going to see my face anymore. I walked out without a word being said from either of us.

We got into Harry's car and drove it was silent.

"Your mom didn't stop you"

"I told you she doesn't love me"

He tried to talk.

"Don't try give me a fake reason I'm not stupid."

He closed his mouth and continued driving

I asked him things that Luke told me about their friendship which made him laugh and reminisce on the stories telling me his side.

He looked at me "you look tired"

"there's no way in hell I'm sleeping."

he laughed "why?"

"I don't want to wake up and this be a dream."

It was silent.

"It's not a dream baby I promise I'm here." Squeezing my thigh

"that's exactly what you said in my dreams before." With a smirk

he smirked at me "what kind of dream was it?"

I laughed shaking my head

"weird I was having the same ones." with a smirk.

"maybe it was our souls way to be there for each other."

He looked at me like he was studying what I said "i like that" he smiled at me

We pulled into a McDonald's
"you still love this garbage right?" 

"hey watch it."

Sitting on the hood of his car and we watched the sunrise while eating.

"I've heard you've been drinking a lot." He spoke with looking at me

"How do you know that" nudging him

"A little birdy told me"

"Would that little birdy be the one that watched me from a white van?"

He shrugged with a smirk

"Not really undercover."

"Look at you getting better at keeping track of your surroundings."

"Was it always zayn in the van?"

"No Louis and niall too"

"How come Liam doesn't ever leave?"

"He's shit at being undercover."

I laughed

"He's great at computers and just knowing shit though. Oh and he is a proper fighter"

We finally made it back to base
We were laying in bed starring at each other. kissing on and off my hands started to wonder but he stopped them "you need rest baby"

"I don't want to sleep." I whined

"you can't stay awake forever." He cooed at me

"the fuck i can't" with a smile

he squeezed my hip "I'm not going anywhere ok I'll be right here when you wake up. I won't even get up to wee."

"promise?"

"I'll just wet the bed if I have to go." Laughing

"you're not helping my suspicion of your secret pee kink." Squinting at him

he laughed and squeezed my hip again "go to sleep"

"you're not denying it."

"shut up and go to sleep so you can have energy so I can fuck you."

I laughed "so romantic"

"shhhhh" his fingers comb through my hair.

I woke up and Harry was passed out next to me. I watched him sleep he looked so peaceful. I moved his hair from in front of his face. I laid there for a while.

I went to get up to use the restroom but Harry grabbed and pulled me to his chest "no same thing applied to you no leaving while I'm sleeping."

I giggled and kissed him "technically you're awake."

"only because you moved."

I sighed laying on his chest

"Lex?"

I didn't like the way he said my name

"Oh no, what now Harry?"

"I think we should put a space between us?"

"Harry are we really doing this again. we've been apart for weeks"

"I know I don't want this either."

"Then why do it?"

"Because I stand by what I said it's wrong how we met. I'm not completely sure you love me like you think you love me."

I sighed taking a deep breath I could already feel the tears. "Harry I'm tired mentally tired"

"I know baby which is why we need space. We can form a normal friendship and if you still want a relationship after then we can. I'm trying to do what I think is best."

"Harry you keep doing that and it keeps hurting me."

"Ok you decide then. stay here and we can pretend like everything never happened or we can start fresh build a relationship out of choice not force."

"How would we do this whole space thing?"

"I can give you my flat or I can set you up in an apartment."

"I'm not going to kick you out of your own home."

"I would give you my life if you asked"

"Harry" I laughed "it's not that serious"

"Ouch. My life isn't serious to you."

I smacked him "I'll do the apartment I guess."