Tips, tips, tips?! xx
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"Medicine?" I softly ask.
He nods, his eyes meeting mine again.
"..Drugs?" I ask nervously.
"No silly." He says, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.
A huge burden is relieved from my shoulders.
"Then what is it?" I ask, biting down on my lip.
"An anti-depresent." He says.
"When did you begin taking them?" I ask as his fingers comb through my hair.
"A few years ago." , "And they just started to kick in?" He nods.
"I have no clue why."
Another flash of fear hit me as I find myself getting lost in his eyes.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask a bit hurt.
"You didn't need anything more to worry about." He says.
I bite down on my lip, "I should go to bed." He nods, "Yeah."
We both go back in and place our glasses in the sink.
"Sleep well." He mumbles, I nod and walk up the stairs to Niall's bedroom.
I shut the door and climb into the bed, fitting in between Niall's arms.
He kisses my head softly before drifting back off.
I really want to just think about Niall.
But I can't.
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Rain.
Another freaking rainy day.
Seattle's a bitch.
I take another spoonful of my Nutella into my mouth.
God was this stuff good.
Money can't buy happiness, but it can buy Nutella. Which is basically the same thing-
"Uhm. Lottie?" Niall says, coming from the Stairway.
I smile softly, "Your up." He nods giving me a half hearted smile.
"What's wrong?" I ask, screwing on the lid.
"We need to talk.." He says and I respond with a nod.
I follow him to the backyard onning, as he closes the door I can see he's nervous.
"I'm going on tour with Demi."
What?
"So I guess your kind of, breaking up with me." I murmer.
He nods slowly and engulfs me in a hug.
He rubs the small of my back and positions his lips beside my ear.
"I'm sorry, it's just. I think it's the best for the both of us."
I nod, and wrap my arms around his neck.
I mean I've been wanting this to happen.
But..
Who would have imagined how bittersweet this would taste?
Certainly not me.
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Laying in bed I notice how lonely I am without anyone.
And it was even worse because it was freezing in here.
As the rain pounded on the ceiling I felt the coldness set in and sleep take over.
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