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I quickly grasped my phone and dialed his number that I've come to know by heart.
Hitting send, I hear the solid rings.
1 ring.
2.
3.
4
5.
6.
A click comes from the other line.
He just declined the call.
Probably a mistake.
I call again, listening to the ring.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5-
He declines it again.
I can feel a lump forming in my throat.
Why did he jut leave?
Why couldn't he tell me?
Why wouldn't he answer?
I can feel the tears forming inside the corner of my eyes quickly.
Was I really that bad?
Did I do something wrong?
Was I not good enough?
As I set my phone down, I can feel the plump tears rushing down my cheeks.
I lean against the cupboard, an slowly slide to the ground placing my face within my hands.
Why should I even be crying over him?
Why?
I clearly didn't mean anything to him.
Nothing.
So, why did I let him mean so much to me?
He shouldn't mean shit to me, because he just kept playing me.
Using me.
He so much of a coward he couldn't even answer my phone call, and tell me that. Instead of writing it on a fucking sheet of paper.
No.
He was to caught up in his ego to explain to a 17 year old girl why he took her virginity and left her.
For lord's sake I could be pregnant, we didn't even use a condom!
Although I had started on birth control a few weeks before.
I raised my shirt to my eyes and dried my sticky tears.
He didn't deserve them.
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Waking up alone was the worst feeling in the world.
And grasping at air was even worse.
But being without Harry was a relief, knowing that I didn't have to get broken like all his promises he made.
Remembering all the lies he had told made me even more pissed- not pissed. More of a resentment.
Why couldn't he just have left and not have came in.
And in my house.
Speaking of my house, my parents had been gone since a few months ago.
I had no calls from them what so ever.
Just another set of people who didn't care-
Knocking begins to echo from the window across from my bed.
I open my eyes, and they quickly adjust to the light as I peel back my sheets.
As my feet hit the floor, I tiptoe to the window slowly a bit scared to look.
I pushed back the curtains suddenly, being greeted my a oh so familiar face..
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lust // h.s.
FanfictionI'm the fire, your the gasoline. I'm no good for you, and your no good for me. [ harry styles // au ]