Why
Why do I do this to myself
I'm running out of time
I can feel it now
I hate my heart
In this moment
How dare you ache for someone
That was never yours
And my mind is an idiot
For thinking of him
All the time
I'm shaking
Like a leaf
And I feel woozy
Talking to you
I can't think straight
Pain
That I shouldn't be feeling
Cause you aren't mine
You never were
You never will be
I'm being stupid
I know
I want to vent
But who to vent to?
I don't wanna feel this
But with every laugh
With every smile
I can't control my heart anymore
She comes
I get mad
She talks to you
My heart aches again
You keep laughing at what she's saying
And I can't keep from shaking
What's wrong with me
Every moment I lose control
It's getting harder and harder
To keep to myself
I am so used to keeping to myself
Keeping my emotions in check
But now I'm boiling over
and I don't know what to do
Oh save me
Save me if you can
I'm going over the edge
I hate this
I hate you
But I can't help but fall
Like gravity has me
I'm so done
I'm so done
I'm so done
Leave me be
Oh why
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My Thoughts On Paper
PoetryHighest Ranking: #1 in Poetry! #1 in Poem! "My Thoughts On Paper" is an ongoing Poem Novel with poems made between the years 2014-2019. Some topics in this Novel are real-life actions and thoughts, while some are made up. This can include abuse, su...