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I want to go back
Even though I have grown so much
I wish to go back
So I can have that excuse
To make those pretty lines
To say those petty lies
Back when things were simple
Yet so complicated
When everything about me I hated
I sit here
Heart pounding
Thoughts swarming
Hands twitching
Back aching
The minutes turn to hours
The same thought runs through me
I try to correct it
I think of other things
Yet it all comes back to that thought
I fit in nowhere
I lie in bed awake
No one cares about me
I'm a fucking mistake
If I disappeared you would forget
Don't try to lie
I can see it in your eyes
I miss my mom
Won't she come back
She must be disappointed
My heart aches all I want is to see
You get one phone call
Can I make it to heaven?
If I do it will he forgive me?
If I do it will he pull me down to hell
God I need you
Where are you
Let me see you
I can't do it on my own
I'm over the edge
Please catch me
I want to go back
Even though I have grown so much
I wish to go back
So I can have that excuse
To make those pretty lines
To say those petty lies
Back when things were simple
Yet so complicated
When everything about me I hated
I hate me
No one cares
Goodbye
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My Thoughts On Paper
PoetryHighest Ranking: #1 in Poetry! #1 in Poem! "My Thoughts On Paper" is an ongoing Poem Novel with poems made between the years 2014-2019. Some topics in this Novel are real-life actions and thoughts, while some are made up. This can include abuse, su...