My Thoughts On Paper

Thirty-Sixth Poem: Lurking

(A/n Sorry I haven't been updating or replying, I have just been so tired and dealing with stuff. Who knows I might make more poetry out of it. If I ever get inspiration back. Enjoy~)

I bite my nail

I wrap my hands together

I bite my skin

And I scratch my arms

I bite my lip

Till it bleeds

Does anyone

Not know

What's happening to me

I don't want to go outside

He might be there

Lurking around the corner

Stalking me

Waiting for a chance to take me back

I don't want to go back

I don't miss him at all

But I'm still scared

That I

See him

Standing there

What will I say?

Will I run away?

I miss you so much

But I know

You never cared

We always fought

I scream at myself

Hit my head against the wall

I wish I had

Amnesia

So I can forget you

Once and for all

Cause I know

That you're out there

Somewhere

Waiting to take me back

When you texted me

I had a heart attack

Why am I scared

You're locked away

But I still

See you

Every which way

I bite my nail

I wrap my hands together

I bite my skin

And I scratch my arms

I bite my lip

Till it bleeds

I wish

I had

Amnesia

So I can forget all the times

You held me in your arms

I still dream about you

When you used to hit me

Or snap in my face

Funny how sorry

Never felt so empty

So cold

I just wanted to feel pretty

But you shot me down

Now I flinch when someone raises their hand

Please stay away from me

He doesn't know what he has done to me

I scream at myself

Hit my head against the wall

He might be there

Lurking around the corner

Stalking me