My Thoughts On Paper

Twenty-Sixth Poem: Good Enough

I feel bad

I feel cold

I feel like I can't even breathe

I hold my chest and sigh

For the pain just won't go away

I can't look at myself

Anymore

I can't face my own face anymore

Wondering if I

Ever could be

Good Enough

I look all around me

But all I see is darkness

When can I

Just be happy

When can i be

Stress free

Your words they haunt me

Now I can't

I just can't

I wanted to be good enough

But personality isn't enough

I wish I could go back

And never say a word

Why do I do this to myself

Why do I even try anymore

Walk out the door

Walk out of life

I want to shut the door

But you are in the way

But when

Can I

Breath

When can I

Finally be able to cut off my emotions

I want to go back to where it was

I want to go back to emotionless

I want

I want

Does that make me selfish

I wanna be selfless

Take my money

Take the blame

When all I have to do is blame myself

I fall too easily

And I fall too hard

Jealousy

Mixed with pain

Why do I do this to myself

Why do I even try anymore

I can't look at myself

Anymore

I feel bad

I feel cold

I feel like I can't even breathe

I hold my chest and sigh

For the pain just won't go away

Finally be able to cut off my emotions

I want to go back to where it was

I want to go back to emotionless

I want

I want

Does that make me selfish

I wanna be selfless

Take my money

I wanted to be good enough

But personality isn't enough