I go
Into relationships
Thinking they will be perfect
Thinking this is the one
Days go by
They only get annoying
I start seeing imperfections
I can't handle
How they see me
I can't handle how I am
So I quit
I stay
But I quit
I think
How am I gonna do it
How am I going to hurt them
Like I hurt myself
Every day
I say that I can't do it
So I let myself fall
Until I can't text them back
I cannot pick up the phone
I am in my own self-pity
I am running through the days
Hurting myself
As they smile at me
Like nothing is wrong
But everything is wrong
So I quit
I stop telling them I'm happy
My texts get shorter
Excuses why I can't see them
I am left with my own thoughts
The dangers of them
As I fall into the darkness
Of this relationship
They start to see
I am damaged
They start to see
I am unhappy
They ask what is wrong
So I ask them if they are happy
They say yes
And I am broken
So I deliver the final blow
Now I want them to text me
For I want to still be there
Now,
When I text
They do not answer
When I call
I get voicemail
Now I know what I put them through
Now I notice what I did wrong
But I leave them be
And I see another
And I start another
Just to go through the cycle
Over again
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My Thoughts On Paper
PoetryHighest Ranking: #1 in Poetry! #1 in Poem! "My Thoughts On Paper" is an ongoing Poem Novel with poems made between the years 2014-2019. Some topics in this Novel are real-life actions and thoughts, while some are made up. This can include abuse, su...