My Thoughts On Paper

Toxic

Pushing your buttons

Till I hit the one that makes you cry

Hating on myself

Cause I know I'm not the right kind

I see them taking you away from me

I hide and cry my eyes

Out

Dont you know that I am sorry

Hurt people hurt people

Even if they love em

I see myself in the mirror

I dont know how you look at me

So I bring that out on you

I say things that I dont mean

You say you love me

But all my broken eyes see

All my broken Ears hear

Is you walking away

I wanna scream

Till my lungs give out

Knowing I hurt you

Is all I think about

I can't apologize

I can't say goodbye

Cause I dont what to do without you in my life

I hear the anger in your voice

But my eyes won't cry

Cause I know that I deserve

The darkness that you create

Inside me

Hours tick by

And I listen to you be happy

I sit in the background

And wonder why can't it be me

Why do I let myself

Hurt you

I say these things

So you can tell me its okay

I'm hurting

Can you take it away

No

You cant take it away

I won't blame you if you walk away

But I know it will put me in all kinds of pain

I am toxic