My Thoughts On Paper

Fifty-Ninth Poem: Trophy Wife

What did I do?

What did I say?

Everything

I thought

Was going okay

Then you stopped

You dropped me off

And that was it

I didn't hear from you for a couple days

I brushed it off

But inside I was screaming

I knew what would happen

Yet I stayed hopeful

When you finally reached out to me

My fears came true

You wanted nothing to do with me

My feelings turned dark and blue

You never said why

Now it lingers in the back of my mind

No matter what I do

No matter what I say

It doesn't matter if I fake a smile

Laugh it off

You meant more to me

Than what I said to you

Two dates

To you meant nothing

To me meant the world

You shoved that light back in me

Brought me the happiness

I needed

Then you took the light away

And I was left in the darkness

Once again

When I tell someone

What happened to me

They laugh and say

"He didn't mean a thing

Keep trying

You'll find someone

He was a jerk

Didn't deserve you"

I wonder why people lie

For I didn't deserve him

I feel like now

In the complicated days in our generation

Men only want trophy wives

They want to show off their beloved's beauty

To show off to their family and friends

To say

"This girl is mine

Only mine

Isn't she the greatest thing?"

But I am not that girl

I cannot be the girl that is this "Trophy wife"

I am just plain

In my looks

And I am too nervous

To have this personality that you seek

I am not one to show off in a crowd

I would love for you to show me off

To love me and care for me

Even in front of people

Yet, I am not that best looking

You would feel ashamed to show me off

Even though I am not a Trophy Wife

That is not what I was meant for

I was meant to love you

Care for you

Cherish you

Not to make you look good in front of friends

In lack of Beauty

I make up for in Love

I make up for it by loving you so deeply

You won't mind if someone looks down at me

You will protect me

And be proud to call me yours

But only people want Trophy Wives

They only want to show off

So even though I will be the best thing

To ever happen to someone

They will only look over me

For I am not a Trophy Wife