My Thoughts On Paper

Fifty-Fourth Poem: The Mask

Couldn't you see

I couldn't do it

Didn't you see

I was choking

Clawing my throat

In desperation

No communication

I was left behind

As our relationship died

I could only cry

Why would I get used

To the goal, you had set

Just for you to leave me again

My heart still hurts

But I cannot run back

How were you happy

In this field of disappointment and pain

I give you space

So much we are drifting apart

I still need you there

This is what I feared

Now you are walking away

As my depression worsens

I get why you walk

I just wish you would stop

You didn't try

So neither did I

You were so busy

I never crossed your mind

I needed more than you gave

I was so selfish

The last time

We saw each other

Before we both walked away

You were so distant

I couldn't see you

I felt like I was annoying

Our relationship was strained

We never saw each other

I didn't know how to act

How is this love

Like I felt for you

My heart soared

Now here I am

With my walls

Built back up

I am in my own corner

Again and Again

I think I am done

I think I am ready

To turn back

And be single

For the rest of my life

For this is pain I no longer want to feel

You have on this mask

I can't

Gather up the courage to send you a text

So here I am writing

This message to you

I am sorry for what was done

So here I am

No longer open

I put on the mask

To say I am fine

But I am no longer