My Thoughts On Paper

Nineteenth Poem: Feelings

(A/N The first part that is in italics is a conversation I had with the person who inspired this piece. Enjoy~)

Would you date her If she wasn't like that?

Yeah

Oh...

Feeling

I can't fight this feeling

I was worried that it would come to this

I told you I trusted you

I told you I loved you as a joke

Was it a joke?

I don't even know

Take it back in time

So I can rewind

All those moments

That made me fall

Please Leave me Alone

But I know I can't leave you alone

I told you I would never leave you

Now this Jealousy

Is clouding my judgment

Makes my chest Ache

I know you will never like me the way I like you

So I am trying to hide the pain

The laughs

The smiles

The memories

You act like you care

But I know you don't care

You said you trusted me

But Trust and care

Are two totally different things

I wish

Oh I wish

No, I can't wish for anything

With you

I hate myself

For doing this

But I love you

Can't take it back now

I can't leave you alone

Please leave me alone

Tell me you hate me

Break my heart

It will hurt less

Then you dating her

Stringing me along

Please stop laughing

Please stop trusting me

I don't deserve your trust

I don't deserve your care

All the calls

All the long hours

Do they mean anything to you?

My heart Pounds

My Heart Aches inside

I know

Oh I know

I will never be

With you