My Thoughts On Paper

I lie

Fingers in my hair

Pulling

My mouth is open

I'm screaming

Heart is broken

My mind is aching

Biting my lip

Till it bleeds

It only takes a little thing

I'm a sinner

I lied

Every lie

That I tell

Another crack in my heart

When I tell you I'm fine

I lie

Pulling

At my fingers

Biting my nails

Heart racing

When the doctor says

Are you all alright?

I'm showing the signs

She says

I shake my head

Tell her I'm working hard

I lie

He knows that I am lying

But I always shake my head

I remain inside my thoughts

Wait for it to pass

Sitting in the dark I wonder

Just how easy it will be

To be lying on the floor till morning

What is wrong with me?

Just how easy it will be?

I ask myself

Do you even love me?

My stepmom

Posted a picture of us

Said she is blessed to have me

Tears in my eyes I cry

I yell I'M FINE

I lie...