I am sorry
For what I said
When I was
Hungry
Excited
Nervous
Depressed
I can't control my emotions
I can't control
What comes out of my mouth
When I feel the darkness slipping in
I write what I can
To the let the light in
I trust you
I love you
But the paranoia
It takes me
Thinking you won't like me
Too many bad thoughts
Too many bad people
Want to take me down
Fill my head with nonsense
I know I don't make sense
I wish you would talk to me
I feel the light
Through the cracks
Of my broken heart and walls
You broke them too easily
How could I let you break them down
Was I too quick
Am I too forgiving
I can't say what I am thinking
I can't believe what I am hearing
You should make time for me
Ten hours a day I still make time for you
Too busy
Too busy for me
Then your words
I take it all back
I still have that darkness in my head
I still feel that tiny regret
Not for you
Never for you
But for me
That I gave in so easily
I'm scared
No, wait
I am terrified
What you do to me
Don't leave me behind
You are in my life
I can't do this twice
Again
I'm sorry
But my heart has been broken
Too many times
I need that reassurance
Please don't get mad
I am so broken
I need you bad
But don't think
That if you leave
I would be too broken to not stand up on my feet
I have done it before
I will do it again
But I really don't want you to go
I want you to know
I am sorry
For what I said
When I was
Hungry
Excited
Nervous
Depressed
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My Thoughts On Paper
PoetryHighest Ranking: #1 in Poetry! #1 in Poem! "My Thoughts On Paper" is an ongoing Poem Novel with poems made between the years 2014-2019. Some topics in this Novel are real-life actions and thoughts, while some are made up. This can include abuse, su...