It feels like so long ago
My Little Heart was full of hope
Now all I want to do
Is get away from you
So I can go home
And cry in peace
I told myself
That it wasn't real
But my heart was too stubborn
Now I'm hurting again
Maybe it's about time
I gave up
Stupid
Fat
Slut and whore
All of these I have been called
Life isn't getting
Any easier
So why am I still here
It really feels like so long ago
I was laughing
I was singing
You actually made me smile
It is not your fault
You were just being honest
I guess
But now
It's like
I can't stop crying
I believed your lies
That you actually cared
It's obvious you don't
I wanted to feel wanted
I wanted to feel loved
But here you are
Saying I won't be
I don't want to eat
I don't want to face you
You say you want to talk
But I can't type out a message
I type and erase
Type and erase
I wish I didn't say anything at all.
I'm ugly
I'm fat
But you knew that
You told me that
But so did I
So why does it hurt to breathe?
I don't keep secrets
I deal with my problems
Alone
I feel stupid for my chest hurting
I feel stupid for falling for you
You never cared
So why should I?
What was it?
Was it your laugh?
Was it your smile?
I don't know
That's all I can say
I tried too hard
I loved too much
I pushed and I pushed
You just shoved me away
Why did you lie?
Why did you tell me
Just to change your mind.
I wanted to leave
Keep my heart
It's broken anyway
I feel empty
I feel numb
I wanted to forget
But you were right there
And I couldn't stay away
You take my pain
And twist it harder
You don't mind saying my secrets
You don't mind hurting me.
You say you want to talk
But I can't type out a message
I type and erase
Type and erase
I wish I didn't say anything at all.
I'm ugly
I'm fat
But you knew that
You told me that
But so did I
So why does it hurt to breathe?
I believed your lies
That you actually cared
It's obvious you don't
GoodBye.
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My Thoughts On Paper
PoetryHighest Ranking: #1 in Poetry! #1 in Poem! "My Thoughts On Paper" is an ongoing Poem Novel with poems made between the years 2014-2019. Some topics in this Novel are real-life actions and thoughts, while some are made up. This can include abuse, su...