That Month In May. Joshua Hong x Reader

33. As Our Snow Falls.

Months go by and I haven't felt any better. I still hung out with members despite meeting a therapist and taking short breaks. In December..We had Christmas together along with Joshua. We hadn't spoken to each other at all throughout that month.

We celebrated the birthdays of some members and had more fun than ever but where did I go wrong?

I had gotten random shocks of attacks where I couldn't hear or have fatigued vision.

"How are you feeling today Eunhi?" Once again the therapist began to question me.

"The same as always." I replied, giving an honest answer. "Don't you think love is dangerous for any type of thing, whether it be a living thing or an object.?" I mentioned and she shook her head.

"It's not dangerous. It's risky. But it doesn't change the fact, that love makes the world better too." She spoke softly yet so meaningful.

Later, I ate ice cream on a cold day. I had my scarf around my neck, a thick long coat and a beanie to cover my head. "I should stop doing this." I said to myself, throwing it away after finishing. I went to go to the event alone and seeing how many couples were there made me feel hurt.

I was on a break this time, people's cameras started facing me, but I continued to enjoy my view of the huge christmas tree. I wish I would've came with Joshua to see it. I wish we were even still as close as ever.

The cameras shuttering suddenly became quiet. I had a mask around my face as I turned around. I can't hear anything..Just smile and wave..Play it off. Please no one come talk to me. Just calm down..Enjoy it.. I inhaled once again, hearing the surroundings flush back in.

After having that sudden attack I turned to the public. "Eunhi- could we have a picture!" 2 schoolgirls came to me.

"My daughter would love to too!" A lady with her daughter came. There were so many girls..I felt different than always being around those guys.

"Of course!" I smiled. I took a picture with every single person.

"Eunhi, you know you should really some kind of fan meet!" The school girl suggested. I was holding the shoulders as I turned to look at her.

"I'm unfortunately not an idol though heh." I light chuckled.

"But I bet many people would come to visit you!" She exclaimed, her friend agreeing.

"I'l bring my whole school if I need to!" Her friend squealed.

"Well, maybe I'll take for notice." I nodded and took the last picture. "Have a great winter and do well in school!" I waved and they waved as well. I smiled, enjoying the time with those people.

"Oh. You're here." My head sent a shock wave as I knew that voice immediately. I touched the ring on my finger.

"Joshua. Having a nice winter.?" I didn't want to be any ruder.

"Yeah. You?" Our talks are so short and snappy while we used to have times of our lives.

"I am." I raised my scarf and I looked to him as flakes of snow began to fall. "Why did you break up with me.?" I noticed he was still wearing the bracelet.

"It's simple. I don't have anymore interest in you Eunhi." He said so straightforwardly to my face.

I scoffed out of disbelief. "So everything we did was nothing.?" I couldn't even get angry at this.

"Logically. Yeah." He turned to me.

"Then why the hell are you still wearing that bracelet." I pointed, taking his arm, rolling up the sleeve.

"Why not? Can I not?" He shrugged and I took off his ring.

"Take the damn ring back Joshua. Fuck this." I slammed it into his hand just walking off. Should I even be upset about this? I don't have fucking time to cry for this shitty situation.

Hearing my heals clack on the concrete..I'm going to come for that girl. That bastard.

I rang Jeonghan.

"Eunhi? What's up?" He picked up immediately.

"Do you have time..to hang out? I'm a little bored." I needed to distract myself. "And plus, it's snowing! I know you don't really like it..But.." I hoped he would come out.

"I'm on my way." He instantly said and I raised my head. "Where are you?"

"Yeongju Park." (Fake park.)

"I'm coming!" He yelled, ending the call. I went on one of the swings after wiping off the snow. It took a couple of minutes before he reached me. "I'm here!" I saw him shiver.

"Maybe you shouldn't have come out.." I fixed his hair as I saw his face shiver. "Sorry." I apologized and he held my hand.

"Don't worry. I'm glad I just have time to meet you." He sneezed.

"You're like a girl.." I teased him a little taking off my coat, I placed it on him as it fit perfectly.

"I'm a handsome man." He grumbled, still shivering.

"I know." I smiled as he took a seat beside me.

"Aren't you cold?" He asked, it was around evening already so it did get colder.

"I'm fine!" I waved my hands, showing my thick scarf, gloves and my extra jacket on me.

"Alright. I'll give it back when you need it okay?" He raised a brow at me and I nodded. "Hm? Where's your ring..from Joshua?" He continued and I glanced at my finger, a mark of the ring still dug in my skin.

"I gave it back. I still can't believe he thinks what we did was nothing. I don't know why I still love him.." I sighed, extremely disappointed with everything, as the snow kept on falling he suddenly stood up in front of me.

He grabbed the chains of the swing and kissed me. My eyes widened at his action. "I'm sorry that I like you too, Eunhi. I know you love him." His eyes started to gloss..I saw tears run down but how could I reply..?

"Jeonghan, I'm so sorry." I tightened him into a hug with me. "I'm sorry you like someone like me." I gritted my teeth..