Flowers for you [SeungJin]

Chapter 4

With tear tracks, which he didn't bother to wipe still running down his face, he got up from his bed and started to pack. Yes, he had some clothes at his childhood home, but his life was mostly here. No matter the plan, he wasn't planning on staying more than a few days. He wasn't sure he'll make it.

Therefore, he only packed a small backpack with a few outfits, his beauty products, a book or two, his electronics and he was basically done. He may have 'borrowed' one of Seungmin's cute sweaters. The weather was changing but still cold enough to wear it. It was short sleeved so he could layer it and it had a wide neck and he really appreciated it on Seungmin...it still briefly smelled of the body spray that Seungmin used too. Maybe he'll hug it to sleep? 'No bad idea Hyunjin, bad idea' he though.

Perhaps, taking the sweater was counterproductive...but he was weak and like Rome wasn't built in a day, his immunity wasn't either.

He sighed. He hoped he'll manage to stick to his plan.

As if to test him, there was knocking on the door and Seungmin's super gentle voice, which was reserved almost exclusively for him (and sometimes Jeongin and Felix) asked him if he was ok.

He answered that he was, but his voice cracked and became higher in pitch and it was evident that he had been crying...so he was sure that the other did not believe him at all.

"Can I come in?" he asked, still in that gentle voice

"It's your room too" Hyunjin answered him, feeling guilty that the other was put out of his own room.

"It's a shared room, but it's okay to need space" Seungmin said, as soon as he opened the door. He stopped right in front of him, moving his hand up slowly, giving him ample time to pull back. He didn't. Seungmin, ever so carefully, wiped the still pouring tears from his face, and then he went to fetch some tissues from his drawer and gave them to him.

There was something so humiliating about blowing your blocked nose in front of your crush, yet they were comfortable with each other. They lived together after all. It was a strange combination of feelings.

"What happened? You can choose not to tell me of course, but I would like to help" Seungmin offered while he set of the other's bed.

Hyunjin shrugged and said that nothing happened. "Jisung called me dumb but he didn't mean it that way, I'm just a sensitive baby. It was nothing, don't worry" He tried to reassure in broken sentences.

"That's not nothing!" Seungmin's voice raised a little, becoming slightly gruffer.

The way that Seungmin was so careful with him, unless he was teasing him himself and the way that he was so gentle always gave him heart palpitations. Surely, that heartbeat pattern was not normal? It also gave him false hopes and he needed to crush them at the roots.

"He didn't mean it that way. I call myself dumb all the time, because I am and it's better if I accept it Min" Hyunjin was looking down, fidgeting with his packed backpack, hoping that the other's sweater wasn't visible. It just may be his luck and considering his streak recently...he wasn't counting on being lucky.

Unintentionally, because his attention span very much reflected 'I Don't Have a Short Attention Span, I Just Oh, Look a Llama', he started gently singing under his breath 'I feel so lucky, Walking in the hood just like a pearl, I feel so lucky' Hoping that he'll become more lucky. Then again, he was in a room, alone, with Seungmin! He really needed to look on the bright side. He smiled then looked up. He found Seungmin looking inquisitively at him. This happened often enough that it stopped being embarrassing (too much). They both had their quirks.