Living with One Direction (Hariana)

•51•: Last performamce with Zayn

We are here in Hong Kong for our concert. It's one of the hardest concerts we'd have to perform. For me personally.

The reason is that this will be Zayn's last performance with us before he leaves the band. I agree with him that he needed this break from the band.

So I guess that this is his last 'hoorah'.

Singing after singing, it's now the final song. The song we will sing is 'Best Song Ever'.

During the song, I was trying to match Harry's vibe and jump up and down to not look so upset during our performance.

I looked at Zayn doing a high note. Even though he's done this a thousand times, it still gives me the chills of how he does it amazingly.

The song was ending and I felt really sad and tried to not cry for the sake of the fans. The fans still don't know and I would tear up. They would raise suspicion.

Zayn ran up to me and gave me the biggest embrace.

"I will really miss you after this." He whispered still hugging me. I rubbed his back.

"Everything will be fine. You're going to be fine after it happens." I spoke softly, pulling away from the hug.

"I'll miss you too." I mouth to him and turned my face to the fans, giving air kisses.

We bowed together and the other boys went backstage.

I placed my arm around Zayn's shoulder as we walked backstage.

We are now backstage to get ready to go back to our hotel rooms. While changing on the restroom, I was silently crying. Thankfully, none of the boys or crew heard me.