My Love is a Star (BTS Suga Fanfiction)

19. The morning after

ROZIE'S POV

I woke up to the sound of an alarm. I searched for the source and it was his phone from the bedside table. I was still in his arms. I didn't wanna break free from the hug, in fact, I am loving it. But the constant ringing from the phone is just too loud. I slowly untangled myself from his arms and got up to the table. It's 5 in the morning. He must have been too tired he didn't even move just one bit. It was cold it made me shiver. Then I realized I still didn't have clothes on. I quickly covered myself with my hands as if it would make any difference. I giggled to myself. Silly me.

I got into the shower. Hot water started to trickle down my head. Bits of last night began to run in my head. His kisses on my lips were still warm enough I could feel them as I ran my fingers on them. I closed my eyes and savored the moments we had that evening. We actually made sweet love. I smiled to myself.

"Just think about this, I've done and felt a lot of things that I've never done and felt in.. probably my entire existence so far. it may sound simple but you have no freaking idea."

His words comforted me. He didn't say exactly what I wanted to hear but it was more than enough. Honestly, I don't know what to make of us when we get out of the world we have made for ourselves. This part of my trip to Seoul definitely was unexpected. But I'm glad I've gone through it anyways. I'm glad I met him.

I peeked into the bedroom and saw that he was still asleep. I got into one of the robes provided by the hotel. My stomach growled and I recalled we didn't have anything last night. Man, I'm hungry.

I reached for the phone and ordered some room service.

SUGA'S POV

I awakened from the smell of food filling up the room. I opened my eyes and got confused of where exactly I am. Then it all came back to me when I heard someone's voice.

"Finally you're awake." She sat in front of me.  "Good morning!" A smile printed on her face as she gave me a kiss on the cheek. "You slept well?"

Damn. I've never had mornings after a hook-up. Everything is just so surreal.

"What?" She asked.

I shook my head. "What time is it?"

"A little after six."

I got my phone from the bedside table. It's already half past 6. I tossed the phone to the bed. The feel of judgment day is slowly creeping on me.

"You got some food?" I asked as I walked to the dining room.

"I didn't know exactly what you'd like so I got the usual."

She got spam and eggs and oh yes, coffee.

I sat myself to the nearest seat. "I'm starving. Let's eat." I patted the seat right next to me.

"You got up early. Was I snoring? Did I wake you up?" I said in between chews.

She giggled. "Not at all. You were just drooling all over me."

My eyes widened. "Really??"

She laughed. "I'm kidding." She continued giggling to herself. Damn. My heart started to flutter. Why am I feeling this way so early in the morning? It could be from the coffee I guess.

"So what's up for you today?"

"A lot of beating from my managers and the rest of my group. I've been receiving death threats since yesterday."

That made her laugh again. I sighed. She's really getting into my system.

"And you?"

"I actually haven't checked my phone. My friends probably have gone crazy looking for me." She smiled to herself as she toyed the eggs with her fork.

"When did you say you were leaving?"

"Two days from now." She pursed her lips together.

I reached for her hand and clasped it. I gave her a reassuring smile. I have no idea what exactly I'm reassuring her actually but that look on her face just pinched my chest. I just want her smiling all the time.

We finished the meal and got into the clothes the room attendant returned. I'm feeling waves on my gut as I put my shoes on. I watched her pull up her hair into a ponytail. Why do I feel like I'm about to lose her? I looked away and returned to tying my shoelaces up.

I got up and scanned the bedroom for things I may have missed.

"Here." She suddenly showed up behind me. She was handing over my hoodie back.

'Keep it." Trying to avoid her eyes. I don't know how to set my feelings now that we're about to part. What should I say? How should I say goodbye?

She held the hoodie to her chest and looked at the floor. That just broke me. So much for trying to keep my feelings in check.

I reached for her arm and pulled her into a hug. I closed my eyes trying to figure out what to make out of this situation I got in. No wonder the management banned us from any form of dating because this is exactly what we'd get.

"Just tell me what to do babe." I broke the hug off and looked straight to her face. "What do I do?"

Tears in her eyes began to form. That just made things worse.

"I don't know. Can we do it?"

I know exactly what she's talking about. Relationship.

"Well.."

My phone suddenly rang. It's Jin again. I signaled to answer the call.

"Ya! Do even plan to get your ass home?!"
Shouting this early in the morning, come on!

"I'm coming okay??"

"Go straight to Big Hit. Meeting in 30 minutes you know what it's about."

I ended the call. I'm fucked.

"Look, I really need to go. Shall we?" She nodded.

I scanned the room one more time and reached for the door.

"Wait." She handed me my cap and mask.

How could I forget? I put it on and saw her smiling at me.

"Can I take one last picture of us?"

Why does she have to say 'last'? A wave of guilt just hit me hard on the chest.

She took three photos and put her phone back in her bag.

We have really come to the end, haven't we? I feel like my heart is being crushed.

"Let's go." She reached for the door and opened it ajar.

I just have to do this though.

I slammed the door closed and pushed her to the door. My lips found hers. I already got what I wanted last night and yet I was still hungry for her. I don't know if I'm ever gonna get over this hunger at all.

I cupped her face in my hands and gave her kiss after kiss. Everything will change the moment we step out of this door. But why do I feel like these feelings I have are here to stay?

I ended the kiss with one last peck on her lips. And another. And another. I just couldn't stop myself. I kissed her again and this time I had to force myself not to. I put my arms around her and whispered to her ear.

"We'll be okay, babe."





To be continued...