Life Ran Into Me

Im sick of you

It's been about two weeks since I spoke to Spazz after not giving me the $60 back.  Jessey and Thomas had moved in with me over that period of time due to their personal reasons. My stamps were back on and they bought mini stoves to cook on and heat up my kids bath water in the sink. I was running put of diapers and needed more badly. I didn't want to ask Jessey or Thomas because they had already paid the light bills and brought heat. So I made my decision. Im going to go over there and give Spazz an ultimatum. Either he's going to get me some diapers or im going to tell the cops how he's raped me more than once even the time I was under aged. That would make him budge for sure I thought. He hated jail yet he's been so many times. Most of them for petty reasons like missing a court date or driving without a license but the way he talked a jail it was a nightmare he had to survive and with a rape charge he'd have some years on his belt so how could he say no? I put on a solid blue hoodie some workout shorts and nike sneakers with my hair tied up some mace on the left side of my pocket and a tazor or the right side of my pocket so if he decided to finally treat me like his other babymama he was going to get whatever hand came out my pocket first and after using both of them on him I would be able to beat his ass for years worth. Even though I was ready to peel thia nigga cap back blue, I wasn't planning to go over there for violence. Just my ultimatum.  I hoped on the first bus after getting ready and didn't tell him I was on my way. He had just got off of work maybe a hour or two before I arrived do I knew he would be there and he was sleep but fuck that. Kiko's baby mama virgina answered the door. "I need to speak to spazz please." I asked nicely. "Randy get up your baby mama here" she said shaking him. He slowly got up and turned to me as if his muscles were tightened. He had a confused as look on his which looked alot skinnier than the last time I saw him. I was shocked and disgusted to see that. It must be the molly I thought to myself. Molly will stripthe weight off a person and they won't even realize until someone says something. "What you doing here man I told you stop popping up over her" he said as grabbed the cover and put it over his self. "I need to talk to you" I demanded. He put the cover over his head and turned around as if he were going back to sleep. "RANDY I SAID I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!" I yelled at him "Bitch what the fuck you want? He popped up fast and looked at me. "You always say you gone help me and you never do! You gave me a lil $60 and took it right back that same day! I need you to stop being a deadbeat and help me take care of the kids WE BOTH MADE TOGETHER! If I was able to get a job right now I would've been did it and not have to ask you for shit I wouldn't be in your face about a damn thing! Im in school and don't have support for a babysitter for to get a job the only reason the girls are in daycare now is because im in a program that only support high school mothers for high school hours. I fuckin need help!" I snapped. He didn't know what to say. "Bitch I just got off work I don't have time for this shit a nigga tryna sleep I actually have a job bitch" he said. "Okay well just give me the money and I'll go" I said. Virgina was in the kitchen washing dishes. She looked like she was minding her business but they way were yelling she heard every damn word. "Ok virgina if yo baby needed some shit and the daddy couldn't do it wouldn't you do what a mother do and make shit happen and get a job?" He asked getting hyped. Virgina didn't wabt to have any parts in our arguments she made that clear. "Nah just answer the question" he demanded her. "Well I get where Lena coming from I'm in school too I know its hard. My baby daddy is here and helps and its still so I get where she coming from" she said simply. "Thank you" I said. I felt she understood my position a little bit. "Bitch you-" spazz intended on cussing me out some more but Virgina stopped him. "You gotta stop calling her a bitch we don't disrespect women in my house" she said turning off the water. "Bitch bitch bitch" he said looking me dead in my eyes as if he was daring me or her to do something about it. "Okay you can get out my house if you wanna continue to be disrespectful" she said as she walked towards the door to open it. He randy walked up behind her and slammed the door back and started yellingbat her and getting in her face as if she was a nigga. I remeber I had weapons in my pocket but I wasn't going to use them unless hit hit or pushed one of us. He cornered her up still in her face his his chest pressed against her. "Look at you look at you" she kept repeating. "Why you in my face like this, you wouldn't be doing none of this if my baby daddy was home" she said as she started crying. He let her out of the corner space and as soon as she did she wiped her tears and ran tonget her phone im about to call him now and tell him to come home cause you bout to put your hands on me" she said. She was pouring tears and constantly sniffing up snot. "And bitch now you sitting over there all quiet and shit like you aint do shit" he said to me putting on a tank top and some shoes. He already had on some worn out gym shorts he went to sleep in. Spazz pulled out his phone and started recording me for facebook. "This bitch done came over here and woke me out my sleep starting shit and begging for money" he put the flash on me. "Fuck you and yo facebook" I said as I flicked off the camera. "I'm not even gone put my hands on you I got somebody for yo ass" he said dialing a number. "Yeah Kiko bro ion know what virgina told you but the bitch is trippin and we can fight or shoot it out or whatever we gotta do bruh but she got me fucked up im trying my hardest not to knock her and Lena ass out" he said. "Damn calm down I'm on my way bro" kiko said. The speaker was on so virgina heard that he didn't even defend her. "Ight bruh" he said as he hung and and dialed another number. "I got somebody for yo ass lena just wait" he said nodding his head as if he had somebody real good. "Ight just tell that bitch to be here before 1:45 because I gotta take the bus back home my babies finna get out of daycare." I said nonchalantly. I waited and chilled because I actually wanted to fight. No female in the world puts fear in my heart. Not the biggest bitch and not the quickest bitch. I already had my fighting clothes on and mad enough. Shit I was beyond ready. Out of no where he walked out the door and got in the car with effic and pulled off. I was pissed that he left because I accomplished nothing. I left right after he did and as I ealked towards the bus stop I got more and more pissed off. I was sick of his shit. I turned around and went right back to Kiko's house. Virgina answered the door and hesitated to let me in but I walked in anyway. "Do you have a trash bag?" I asked looking at Randy things with both hands on my hips. "Yeah" she replied as she was on the phone stumbling through trash to find one. Once I got the bag i began to pack all of Randy's shit. I mean everything he owned.  Everything he owned was in the trash bag that I had except for the raggedy clothes he had on already. I made sure I took his uniform so he couldn't go back to work. Shit what was the point if he not taking care of any of hia kids anyway.. Virginia just sat there and watched me pack everything. She knew not to try and stop me. She didn't even say a word she just let me walk out the door with it. From the balcony you can seen the huge pool. My first thought was to dump the bag in there but that was too easy. All he had to do was get it and dry everything off. So I kept the bag with me. I thought of a better idea. I'll take them to my house put it in a pile on my back porch and burn it. That sound great to me. Plus I never burned a nigga clothes before so I pissed off yet excited. The bag was super full and heavy. I struggled taking it to the bus stop I could barely carry it so I dragged it a little. The bag was fine. It was getting weaker but no wholes. I got on the second bus to my house and once I got off I could barely hold it at all. A lot of men were yelling at me trying to talk to me and flirt as they watched me stuggle so I rolled my eyes. Finally the bag ripped on and the clothes started falling out the side. All the men started laughing. "I could've helped yo stuck up ass" one man yelled as he continued laughing.He looked like he was touching 50 years old. I was so upset that I didn't get to burn his clothes. I ripped the bag completely open and started throwing his stuff in every direction. All in the street so the cars could run over it and out in the open so homless men or anybody would feel free to take his shoes and shit. "Oh that's nigga clothes" the same man yelled out and laughed even harder. I fucking hate men. They will never mature. As soon as I got home Spazz texted me. "Ashely just beat virgina ass for letting you take my shit, you next" Nothing could aggravate me more. I've been dying to beat Ashely ass again. THAT'S who he was going to get to fight me? Oh how I wish I could've just stayed at his house and waited later. But good thing I didn't wait longer because as I entered the apartments so did the daycare van. My kids and I made it home at the same exact time.  Later on that night Red, his sister called me and asked to hear my side of the story. Randy had told her everything but I know he probably added some shit in there that didn't happend or twisted the story around to make me look like the bad guy. Or was I? I told her everything that happend. Red always rooted for me and Randy but over time she became indifferent about it because shit got old. We did the same thing over and over again. If we were together, she was happy for us, if we were beefing, oh well. Even him being her brother she never turned on me. She knew the shit I been through with him and she knew my frustration. She just gave her best advice to keep the situation at a minimum. After we got off the phone I seen I had a text message from Spazz. He told me he was coming for me and my sister. Thomas was at work. "Goodnight" a simple response done with his bullshit. But it wasn't a good night for him. "I'm otw" he replied. He called me "Bitch effic finna drop off to yo shit right now we on the way."