Beyond

57

*Milan

Why tf was I crying?

Like after that shit she pulled. I was hurt that she was with Treasure. Like how could I be hurt and jealous?

I left with tears coming down my face. I was hurt. I was confused. I was PREGNANT!

I didn't even get to tell her I was pregnant. FUCK MAN!!

I went to get some to eat, parked, and was in my car. I didn't wanna go home cuz I didn't wanna be around Titus. I could call the police but his family could do a lot to my mom. As in fucking with her money and other shit. So, that's a no go.

I would go to Crystal's but her and her husband are having family time. They've been working so much that they haven't been spending time with their children so they're having family time.

Red and her girlfriend are visiting her girlfriends family. Red is finally meeting them.

Lately, Lani and Cam have been fucking like animals so no need for me to go there. They'll say they're busy.

So sitting in my car in a parking was the next best thing. While in the car, it started raining. I sat in the car while just looking out at the cars. My mind was occupied.

"I'm pregnant..." I said softly

This me finally saying it out my mouth and my eyes started tearing.

"I'm fucking pregnant..." I breath out as tears fell

I'm pregnant by a person who only want one thing from me even tho I love her to death. I can't believe I let this happen.

After a hour, I started the car and headed home. I drove and listen to music to try to lift my spirit. I finally pulled in and I seen Titus car was still here. I sat in the car for a bit before getting out. I put my papers in my purse while getting on the elevator. I went up to the floor and got off. I unlocked my door and went in. Soon as I went in a aroma of food smacked me in the face. I locked the door back and turned around. I seen Titus coming out the guest room and looked at me. His eyes were back to normal.

"Umm I cooked..." he said

"Thank you but I already ate..." I said softly

"I want to apologize about earlier. I shouldn't put my hands on you. That's not something I do and I can't believe I did that. Especially to you. I know right now my apology might not mean anything right now, but I'm truly sorry Mil..." he said

Him calling me Mil made me look at him. He used to call me Mil when we first started "dating". I gave him a small smile.

"Thanks for the apology. I'm about to go get in the shower..." I said

He nodded. I headed to my room and he went into the kitchen.

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*week later

A couple days ago I texted Zion and told her I needed to talk to her. We were meeting at a donut shop. I was here before her. I ordered myself a Ham and Cheese croissant and a water. I seen her car pull up. I became nervous. She got out the car and looked directly at me. She walked to me.

"Why you sitting outside??" She asked

"I needed some fresh air..." I said looking down at my fingers

"What's wrong??" She asked

"A week ago I went to the doctor because I was having problems. I went to the doctor and they did a few test..." I said as she looked at me
"Just here..."

I passed her the papers and a pregnancy test I took at home that was wrapped in a paper towel. She read the paper then looked at the pregnancy test. She looked up at me.

"Why you showing me this??" She asked

"Cuz I'm pregnant..." I said

"Wasn't you just fucking on that Nigga a few weeks ago..." she said

"Zion I told you I didn't have sex with him. You the only person I've had sex with..." I said looking at her

"Milan how can you be pregnant by me. It's very rare for you to even get pregnant but me..." she said

"And Zion what if this is one of those rare cases??" I asked

"I didn't even nut in you..." she said

"I told the doctor that, but she said it's possible to get pregnant by pre-cum..." I said looking at her

She rubbed her chin while looking at the pregnancy test.

"Milan I don't know..." she said

"Zion your the only person I've been with..." I said

"How am I supposed to know that??" She asked

"Because I'm telling you. I wouldn't lie about no shit like this..." I said as tears filled my eyes

We sat there in silent for a while as she looking at the papers and pregnancy test.

Zion stood up and started walking away.

"Zion..." I said walking behind her

"Milan I need some time..." she said

She left me standing there. She got in her car and left. I sat back down and broke down.

I'm so tired. Tired of tryna make her be here. Tired of giving people the benefit of the doubt. Tired of feeling down. Tired of crying. Tired of her not believe me. I'm just so tired.

"Hey Hey Hey..." I heard

I looked up and seen Jade.

"Don't tell me you work here too..." I said making her laugh

"No, I'm here with a couple of friends. But I seen you out here crying, so I excused myself. Are you alright??" She asked wiping my tears

"I'm trying to be..." I said softly

She looked at the table then looked at me.

"Are you??" She asked pointing to the table

I let out a lite sigh.

"Yeah..." I said

"Was he the baby daddy??" She asked

"She..." I said

"She??" She asked looking at me confused

"She's intersex..." I said

"Ohhhh..." she said

She talked for a bit and honestly, she lifted my spirit. She was finna head back in.

"And FYI you're cute when you cry..." she said before walking into the building

I chuckled and shoot my head while smiling.

I grabbed my things and left.