Highway To Hell (Mad Max Fanfiction)

Chapter 97: I Need You, But I Don't

I found my way to the garage, where Max stood over his car I stood in the darkness watching him for a moment. Max didn't do anything, he stared at it. But in the blink of an eye max threw his toolbox at the wall, holding his head and closing his eyes tightly, talking to himself.

"No, no I came back" he spoke frantically, pacing around the garage. "I came back, I did" I sighed, walking into the garage and looking at Max who froze in his tracks, staring at me, his eyes were different, an expression I couldn't explain. We stared at each other in silence, he walked quickly over to me, grabbing my face and kissing me roughly, desperately. I pulled away, looking down at the floor.

"I can't.... Do this anymore... Max" I choked, my throat was thick and I was holding back tears with all the strength in my body. His crystal blue eyes examined me, glittering with... Sadness? Anger? Fear?

"What do you mean..." His voice was so quiet, like a whisper. I didn't answer and I watched his face become angry, his fists clenched and his jaw stiffened. "What are you saying?!"

"I don't know if I love you anymore Max" I blurted out, his face went blank, emotionless but then quickly he was cold, hard and furious. "You left me in the fucking wasteland. you're angry all the time, you still haven't let me in..." His crazed eyes were wide and aware now, and if I didn't know any better I would say he was ready to attack me.

"I came back"

"I SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN IN THAT SITUATION IN THE FIRST PLACE"

"You should have came with me" he was speaking so calmly but the expressions in his eyes were truly terrifying.

"And leave them behind? Ariadne and Furiosa? Like they don't need us-"

"I don't need anyone!" He spat "I needed you, that was it!" I shook my head in disgust.

"What max, we're gonna survive on our own in the middle OF THE FUCKING WASTELAND?! WHERE ARE WE GONNA GO??"

"Nowhere, you're not coming anywhere with me."

"Good, I don't want to spend the rest of my shitty life with a shitty man who leaves everyone behind" Max's hands grabbed my shoulders roughly, and his face was inches from mine.

"You think you know everything" he spoke slowly, sternly, and it made me shake. "You think you can find love and happiness somehow Phoenix? It doesn't exist anymore."

"It exists" I breathed, looking into his eyes "just not in you." His eyes faltered, but his grip on me didn't loosen. "Let. Me. Go." His face scrunched up angrily, but he let me go. "You think you can just do whatever the fuck you want, like none of us have feeling or emotions YOURE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHOS SUFFERED MAX"

His fist came up and he punched the wall right next to my face, not being a,pale to co train his anger anymore, it honestly scared me and I could feel the tears beginning to come. "Get. Out."I stared at him.  "Now" his voice was ice cold and he threw something across the room, I had never seen him like this, and it was then I realized how truly mad Max really was.

"We're done Max..." He exhaled angrily, looking into my tear filled eyes and opened his mouth to speak, but before he could, I stalked out the door and away from him. When I made it back to the room Ariadne was gone, probably with Furiosa trying to get away from me, and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I screamed out of anger, throwing myself over my bed and crying, tears of despair, sorrow and anger. I wanted to hurt him for making me want him.
It wasn't that I didn't love him anymore... It was the fact that he so easily left us behind, left me behind, I wasn't going to deal with that. I wondered if Jeet would let me go back to gas town with him, away from all of them, I didn't wanna see Max, and Ariadne didn't want to see me, I knew that, what was left for me here?