Wish I Had Time For Complicated

65. Do I Wanna Know?

Song: "505" Arctic monkeys

"I did something" Sara blurted out the moment Henry and Dylan went to change their shoes and take the bowling ball.The bowling room was busted with people and laughter.A complete contrast to her feelings.

Katie turned to her friend with an amused and curious expression on her face,her chocolate eyes observing Sara's seriousness in the dim lighting of the big salon.

"Do I even wanna know?" The nurse lifted a teasing brow at Sara,but at seeing her frown,Katie's grin faded slightly.Her friend wasn't even looking at her and Katie hoped her friend wouldn't drop a freaking bomb in just a second.She had known the doc long enough to know that when Sara wasn't even glancing her way she way deep in her head,which usually eneded badly.

"What is it?" Her tone was softer this time and Sara finally turned her copper eyes to her and for Katie's surprise, they weren't dull or sad as they had been for the past year.It was quite the opposite.She had that strong determination in her orbs that Katie hadn't seen in a loonggg time.

"I'm divorcing Dylan" Sara didnt feel the painful sting that she thought she would feel when voicing the words out.Quite frankly,the doc just felt a weight being lifted from her shoulders, finally freeing her and allowing her to breathe freely.She felt like a bird.

As if her wings were tied down to her body this whole time and now the ropes were exploding with the force of her will for a better life,finally letting her expand those beautiful wings and fly.Yea,quite poetic and pathetic but that's exactly how she felt.

Before Katie could even mumble a word,cus she was quite speechless at the moment,the men returned back to their table,bantering how the other was gonna lose.The nurse glanced at Sara,who wasn't even paying attention at them,she was staring off into something at the other end of the room.

She seemed so careless and so done with everybody's shit.And Katie couldn't help but compare the Sara from a year and five months ago to this one.The other Sara looked at Dylan adorningly and couldn't wait to have children with him.She was "happy" with him.But...

But the new Sara, the Sara that had fallen in love with Michael,she seemed so much younger and happier and more free then ever.Katie watched for the five months that they had their affair how Sara became alive under Michael's touch and how she bloomed so beautifully with his love as her sun.How she breathed more easily.Not to talk about her sudden love for flowers.Sara hated flowers before Michael Scofield came in her life.He was bringing out all the best in her.

And Katie couldn't even bring herself to judge her best friend. She could clearly see how miserable the doc was without her favorite engineer.The nurse just wanted the best for her.Everyone makes mistakes.Everyone has that one chapter of their life that they don't read out loud.And maybe this was Sara's.

She had the right to make up for her sins.Everyone deserved a second chance and if Michael was hers, Katie would be more than supportive of Sara to grab it and hold on to it for as long as it lasted.

"Are you sure that's what you want?" Katie questioned when their husbands went for the first round of bowling.There was no judgement in her voice and for that Sara was thankful.Her eyes lazily followed the ball as it rolled smoothly on the floor and crashed those bottle like plastic things that she always failed to remember the name of.

"I'm more than sure.I can't live in a lie anymore.I can't go to bed everynight with a man that I don't love.I will finally put an end to this whole thing.I wasn't fair nor to Michael nor to Dylan." Sara voice is serious and it holds no hesitation.She was done playing these games.

Even if Michael never went back to her,which she would absolutely understand, she needed to set at peace all her ghosts and finally be free.Selfish she knew,but she couldn't live in a lie anymore.Nor could she let the man she was wedded to live that way.In an illusion.

"Does he know about it?" Katie nodded her head towards Dylan subtly,regarding his laughing face for a second.He didn't even seem to know of Sara's intentions by the happy grin on his face and the kiss he gave his wife before diving into the game.The question was pretty self explanatory by now in the nurse's head.

"I'll tell him tonight...when we go home."

Sara sipped from her soda,her free hand fidgeting with the ring on her finger.She was itching to set herself free from the golden thing and go back to being Tancredi as soon as possible.

Yes,she was being a bitch and Dylan didn't deserve any of the shit she was serving on his plate.But this was the harsh reality.Not some lifelong love story with a happy ending. Happy endings never even existed in the doc's perspective.

"And what about Scofield?" Katie continued on,but not pushing her friend.She wanted for Sara to be comfortable of talking about the love of her life,because she's been pretty closed off this past year.Understandable.

Sara felt the way her heart fluttered magically at the mention of her ex,as if she was still a teenage girl.But with Michael she just couldn't help it.She couldn't help the small pathetic thought in the back of her mind too,that he'd eventually go back to her.And she knew she'd do anything to make up for her mistakes and win him back.She'd fight for his love,as long as he was willing to give it to her...again.

But she would understand if his wish was to stay the hell away from her if that was it.She had broken his heart after all.Humans weren't robots who could just erase their bad memories or feelings, as much as she wanted to.It was real life and it was time for the doc to own up to her mistakes.

"Scofield.." His name rolled gently on her lips and she let herself savoir the way it made her feel.Her eyes closed for a second and a small sad smile appeared on her dry lips.Oh the irony of life..He had been the one to chase her love and affection and look how the tables have turned now.

"He knows that I'm breaking up with Dylan.What he wants to do with me and my feelings is totally up to him. I won't even go near him if that's his final wish.I'll respect him the way he did me.That's what he deserves"

Sara's smile was bitter and her copper eyes filled with unshed tears.If she had to be brutally honest with herself she knew she didn't even deserve him,but her little selfish heart couldn't help but hope that one day he'd open his soul to her and accept her back to him.Back to heaven...

My writing skills haven't been on point lately and I'm so sorry for it.Also I want to remind you all I'm not a native English speaker so hopefully you understand well my writing 😄

Anyways,what are you all thinking of this chap? For me personally it was one of my fave chapters.Comment and vote

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