"Love is just a beautiful feeling. It never sees the religion, cast, gender nothing Love just happens."
Trigger warning mentions of blood, mental illness, attempts suicide and homophobic slurs please proceed with caution. • Playlist - Blue and grey, lovely, lie, epiphany
(This is a flashback of Jimin's past when he was in Sydney. Please note that his age here is 19)
Jimin's narration
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Here I sat dull in my room looking at the plain wall infront of me. Life is unfair isn't it? It fucks anyone without a warning.
At least a godamn warning would be enough, just a small one. So that I could have prepared to accept my fate.
My red eyes were glaring at the wall and my head is hurting with my body shivering severely. The walls of my room felt scary to me, they were always scary.
I wanted a hug someone or even wanted someone beside me but I know I won't get it, because there is really no one who would be with me.
I feel fucking lonely, My soul feels lonely.
I have everything! Money? I can throw it at your face, clothes? I have them, a good University ? Of course I was in the most prestigious University of Sydney.
I have everything, everything except love and attention.
Might sound stupid but no one knows what happens if one doesn't receive love. They turn insane or they turn numb, I'm just suffering silently. Trying my best to cope up with shit called life, it's so hard, so hard yet I know I can't do anything.
No one even bothers to talk to me..My dad is busy with his business, my mom must be with her friends or asking dad's attention. My brother? He must be fucking his so called girlfriend, a gold digger.
I don't know? I'm messed.
These days I feel awful of myself. Why?
Because why can't I smile like my brother? Why can't I get love? Is it because I'm different?
Why should I fake my smiles and tell people I'm okay? When I'm not, I'm getting tortured mentally, everyday..
My tears threatened to come out yet I didn't let them out knowing it'll probably disturb someone in the house. They would then have to check up on me and ask about my health.
Why should I trouble them? I'm not a burden.
I don't want to be a burden to someone, not in my entire life.
I could hear the chatter chatter of maids outside. I could hear them talking various shit about my life when they don't even know a little information about me.
