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Barry - The Flash

Trigger Warning: depression

I laid in bed. It was nine in the morning, but I hadn't gotten out of bed. I didn't even really feel capable of getting out of bed at that moment. I was in to much pain.

I wasn't in a lot of physical pain, although that was partially evident as well. No, the reason that I wasn't able to get out of bed was because I was in a lot of emotional pain.

After losing one of my closest friends, to finding out some evil thing was out to kill me, and I had months to live, I was in so much emotional pain. It was hard to move, and sometimes, because of how much crying the pain caused, at times, it was hard to breathe.

I had no idea how we were going to make it out of this mess. I had no clue if there was anything that Barry or the team could do about it. Part of me does feel bad for not having enough faith in them. But, the other part of me feels like it's normal to be scared.

I heard a knock on the front door. I didn't want to get out of bed. So, I laid there hoping that whoever it was at the door would just go away and leave. I heard another knock.

"Go awayyy" I mumbled.

I heard another knock. I got annoyed, but decided to get out of bed to see who was at the door. I got out of bed then opened by bedroom door, walked out, then walked to the living room.

I walked over to the door and looked out the peep hole. I saw Barry standing there with a couple of coffees.

I opened up the door. "What are you doing here?" I asked.

"You haven't shown up to Star Labs in a few days. I was worried about you." Barry said.

"I'm fine, Bare." I said.

"Alright, then can I come in?" Barry asked.

I stood to the side. "He actually believes that I'm fine? He never believes me when I say that. Maybe he just wants me to admit that I'm not actually fine." I thought.

Barry walked in and I closed the door behind him. We walked to the living room then sat down. Barry handed me one of the coffees.

"Are you really fine?" Barry asked before taking a sip of his coffee.

"Yes, I'm absolutely fine." I said before taking a sip of my coffee.

Barry looked at me with disbelief. "I don't think you actually are." He said.

"What would make you say that?" I asked.

"You haven't come into Star Labs in a week. That's not exactly in character for you. I've known you for a really long time, you've never missed a day. Also, when you say you're fine, that never really means that you are actually fine. What's going on?" Barry asked before taking another sip of his coffee.

"Life. Life is going on Barry. I'm upset. I feel like I'm drowning. And I'm scared, because of the fact Savitar wants to kill me. And you saw a future where he does. He kills me, Barry. And I'm terrified." I said.

Barry set his coffee down on the coffee table. "It's gonna be okay, Y/n/n." He said.

I set my coffee down on the coffee table. "You don't know that. You aren't the one who could die." I said.

Barry wrapped his arms around me and held me close. "I'm not going to let him kill you." He said.

"What if you guys can't stop him? I don't want to die, Bare." I said before burying my face in his chest.

Barry combed his fingers through my hair. "It's going to be okay. I won't let him kill you. We will save you. I promise." He said.

"Don't make a promise you can't keep. You don't know what the future holds." I said.

"We make our own future." Barry said.

5 days until Savitar is supposed to kill you

I was trying to make the most out of what time I had left. I had no idea what would happen next. I was trying to not think about it to much. Knowing Savitar is a future version of Barry kinda scared me. He knew everything Barry knew. So, he knew how to find me.

4 days until Savitar is supposed to kill you

Time was running out. I was scared. There was nothing I could do. I felt defeated. I felt powerless, this whole thing was out of my control.

3 days until Savitar is supposed to kill you

Savitar had found me and taken me. There wasn't anything I could do. I was supposed to be safe, but Savitar tricked H.R., and he told him where I was. Savitar had gotten me, and now I wasn't safe anymore.

2 days until Savitar is supposed to kill you

H.R. used his image distortion thing. He tricked Savitar. Disguised himself as me, and made me look like him. I was safe, for now. As long as Savitar believed he had me.

1 day until Savitar is supposed to kill you

I was still disguised as H.R. it felt weird looking different like this. Not being able to hold or kiss Barry. I hated it. But if he knew the truth, Savitar would know too.

The day Savitar is supposed to kill you

I was on the rooftop with my mom and Joe. But to them I looked like H.R. We could see what was going on. I could see that Savitar had a hold of me, or H.R., who just looked like me. He killed him, and Barry fell to his knees. Both my mom and Joe looked over, and looked so broken.

H.R. took down the disguise, and we both returned to looking like our normal selves.

"You're alive?" Joe said.

"H.R. tricked Savitar. He felt responsible for me being taken. He thought he had to set it right."

A week later

Yesterday Barry had been forced to go into the speed force. I sat alone in my apartment, which he had moved into with me a couple of months ago. I had gotten so used to not being alone. Now that I was, it was the worst feeling in the world.