𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 || sturniolo stories

M ·not eating·

-Y/N POV-

I woke up from a nap before I started calling Matt's name.

"Matt" I shouted. No answer. 

"Babe," I said a bit silently as I walk downstairs. 

"Sorry, Y/N! I'm making dinner" He shouted as I ran downstairs, sighing because I was tired. I hadn't been eating because I don't like my body. I hate seeing it. I hate everything about it.

 "Why didn't you answer me the first time I said your name? I thought you were hurt or something." I laughed. 

"Why would you think I was kidnapped? I'm 19 years old. I don't think anyone wants me," He says.

"I do" I say jokingly as he laughs.

Matt finished with the dinner as he puts it on plates. He made us dinner but I still felt really insecure. My acne, my cheeks, my body, and just everything I was always insecure about.

 I didn't want to eat. Matt just came back from LA and he was gone for three weeks. I didn't eat those entire three weeks. 

He handed me my plate and I looked down and fidgeted with my fingernails and my leg started bouncing. 

"Y/N, what are you doing?"  He says as he looked over at me and put his fork back down on his plate.

"Oh, nothing." I smiled weakly. 

"I can tell something's wrong, Y/N. we've been together for two years, I'm pretty sure I can tell when you're lying to me." he smiled.

"Matt, I'm fine," I said a little loud. 

I gave in and began eating my food. After I ate a little bit, I started to feel sick. 

"Ok..." He said to himself. I put my fork back down on my plate and crossed my arms over my stomach. 

I pushed the plate away from me because the smell of the food made my stomach hurt worse and made me want to throw up even more. Matt looked confused. 

"Is my food that bad? Are you okay?" He says before putting his fork down and rubbed my back gently. 

"Uh, yeah. I'm fine. My stomach just hurts, that's all." he was starting to catch on and he was starting to get suspicious of me. 

"You sure? You seem sick." He got out of his chair and lifted me up, bringing me to the bathroom. He sat me down on the floor and as soon as I got there, I threw up all the food I had just eaten.

 "Y/N, what's going on? Please talk to me. Was it the food, did it make you sick, what the hell happened?" He says running his hand through his hair. 

"Nothing, Matt." I sighed and sat against the wall, he was starting to get frustrated with me. 

"Y/N..." He frowned. 

"Fine." I rolled my eyes and turned to face him. I didn't want to say anything, but Matt wouldn't get off my back. 

"I didn't eat the whole time you were in LA. I thought you deserved a girl that was perfect and didn't have any insecurities, so I starved myself, and when you got back, I started to worry that you were going to worry about me like you are." I said. 

"Babe, you are perfect. Don't ever tell me you're not you're the most beautiful woman I've ever met and probably ever will meet. Everyone's insecure about things, but starving yourself isn't going to help. sooner or later, it's just going to make you sick like you are now. I love you." He says cupping my cheeks. 

"Matt, but I'm not. I wish I was perfect, but I'm really not. I've dealt with things that I wish I didn't have to, I have so many mental health problems, and now this." I started to cry. 

"Yes, you are, listen to me. you don't think you are, but what I see every day when I wake up is perfection. You. You're so gorgeous and beautiful and you're so pretty" he smiled and wiped my tears away from my face, making me smile.

 "I love you." I smiled. 

We both stood up and I hugged him tight and so did he, he hugged me around my waist while I placed my arms around the back of his neck. We stood there for a little while before we went to bed a few hours later.

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Authors note: For anyone dealing with an eating disorder, just know that you are beautiful and you don't need to change for anyone. Keep eating and stay healthy because you shouldn't be like all the other girls. You're pretty and beautiful the way you are. If anyone needs to talk my dm's are open. I love you guys all and I'm here for you <33