Girl Meets New Love

Chapter 108

Sabrina's POV:

"I need to call her."

I tell Corey.
He looks at me and nods his head furiously.
I go to my call history and click on Rowan's number which is right at the top.
I let it ring until she picks up even though I don't think she will the first time.

In the mean time, I rant to Corey,

"I didn't cry. I didn't get mad. I only feel one emotion. And it's annoyed.

I'm just annoyed with myself.
I don't know why I think I have self control and even if I do, I know that Rowan doesn't like when I drink.

It's like I'm selfish.

Okay fine I'm selfish.

That's my problem.
That's THE problem

It's nothing she ever does. It's always me. I have no idea why she stayed with me through the 60 break ups and fights we've gone through.

She just really love me. Which I can't figure out why because I keep doing this to her.

It's fucked up.

I love her too.

And because I love her, I have to let her go.

I don't want to not even a little bit
But that's what's best for her

When I first started dating her I thought I was the best for her. But I'm clearly not."

I take a deep breath in and out.

The room is silent, as Corey doesn't even know what to say. The truth hurts

The silence is broken when I hear a voice say,

"I think.. I think agree Sabrina."

It wasn't Corey's voice.
It was a girls voice.
Small and sad sounding

It was Rowan.

My eyes and head jolt down to my phone to realize she did pick up on the first try. And she heard every word I just said.

I didn't want her to agree.
I want her to fight for us and try to prove me wrong.
I hope I'm wrong..

"Is this it."

My voice cracks.

"I don't want it to be. I don't know what to do."

She says.

I stay quiet until she states,
"I love you Sabrina annlynn Carpenter."

I hold back my tears.
I say,
"I love you Rowan Eleanor Blanchard."

And she hangs up and ends the call.

The call wasn't the only thing ended that day.

Our relationship was
My life was
Our future was.

But our love never was, and never will be

I'm sorry. I think I'm gonna end the book here. I've grown up and matured since I started writing this book back in 2015.  I don't have time or the desire to write anymore and I think this is a good place to end it. Maybe I'll write an alternate ending for you guys. But for now, this is the end of girl meets new love.

Thank you all for the tremendous amount of support, feedback, love, and reads. You're all amazing and I'll miss you all :) I'll see you guys soon

Xoxo jackie 🖤❤️