My mother's boyfriend-A Urban tale

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It was 3am.
I couldn't sleep.
I was up thinking about way to much.
My blood pressure felt like it was up again.
I was scared for Ava.
It was fucked up that she had to deal with Angel, her dad, a pregnancy, and drugs.
I felt bad I put her out.
Then, the whole time, my boyfriend is the one giving her the drugs.
I started to cry.
"If Ava is dead right now, it's my fault because I put her out." I said out loud to myself.
I then started to think about my momma.
How she texted me that rude ass shit.
She really is living her life without me.
But could I really blame her ? I mean, I did have a baby by her man.
My Mind had racing thoughts.
I wanted to pick the phone up , and call my momma so bad.
I called Alex, again.
No answer.
What was I thinking when I kicked them out ?
I tried to close my eyes and go to sleep, because only god knows I'll be tired for school.
My phone rang, Alex. He was calling back.
"Hello ? Baby I'm....." I was cut off by moans.
I heard clapping and moaning  in my ear.
"The fuck ?" I yelled.
I listened for another 10 seconds until I heard Alex moan, "Damn Roses, you wet as fuck!"
My heart dropped, "Ava ?" I cried.
I couldn't listen anymore, I threw the phone against my wall and it broke in 3 pieces.
This is why they wouldn't answer the phone, because they were together after I kicked them out.
I started to feel like it was my fault they were fucking.
I got off my bed and started throwing things around the room.
My clothes, baby bottles, homework.
"I fucking hate my life!" I yelled with rage.
Tears were falling and my breathing got heavy.
I was to mad to realize I broke the only phone I had because I had to pay my phone bill on my iPhone.
Zeek woke up and was crying.
I picked him up and held him.
I rocked back and forth and cried with him.
I was so sad.
I literally had nobody but Zeek and Fanny.
So much was happening that I felt like Fanny was going to turn on me soon too.
I didn't trust nobody.