Loving the Fighter

72

Major Trigger warning for this chapter! I strongly advice that everyone scroll down to the ed of this chapter to make sure they won't be triggered. 

Jax's POV

The rest of the night went pretty normal, at least as normal as it gets around here. Liam went to his session. Then Callum went. Ryder popped in a movie like always.

When Callum got back from his session he was carrying four treys of food. One in each hand and the other two were being held between his biceps and his forearms, I don't know how he managed to open the door, let alone how he got all of that to balance.

"I went ahead and got dinner before the lock down gets any worse. I doubt they'll let anyone out of the cabins passed 8 tonight," he said as he began passing out treys.

"What do you mean by lock down?" I asked when he placed a trey in front of me. The sheer sight made me want to gag and I'm pretty sure I was glaring at it.

"Apparently like 20 kids had a full out fight during P.E today. Normally when two or more people fight they just take the cabin mates and lock them up in the cabin so they can't make it worse. But this time when guards tried to take the mates away everyone joined in. It was that whole class against like 15 guards. That's the whole reason Andrew bought you lunch today."

I couldn't help but frown as I continue to glare at my trey.

"Andrew didn't bring me lunch today. Patrick ended up leaving for a minute."

"And Patrick didn't tell you," Ryder asked as he picked around his food too while Liam only sighed.

"No, Patrick wouldn't even know. The guards would try to keep it away from him so he didn't get involved or mad at them."

"So you just thought that we ditched you? And you didn't question it?" Callum questioned as he stalked back over to my bed.

I try to shrug it off but Callum wasn't going to let it go that easily.

"I figured you had a reason," I lied. It didn't cross my mind that there would be a reason like that. In the three months I've been here I was only one starting fights.

Callum frowned like he didn't believe me as he sat down on the bed. He made me scoot forward so he could sit behind me, my back to his chest. His arms slowly wrapped around my waist as he pulled me closer.

"Well, just in case there was ever any doubt, we would never leave you if we had the choice. We tried to convince a guard but they were too testy today. I'm sorry if you thought we were ignoring you."

"It's fine," I say with a shrug as I turn back to my trey. My stomach rumbled as a warning to get that shit away but Callum seemed to take it as a sign of hunger.

"Have you eaten anything today?" He asked as he looked at my breakfast and lunch trey.

"I had lunch but my stomach hurt at breakfast," I say making Liam look over to me with a small glare.

"You should be hungry then," he said casually. I couldn't help but glare back at him as I tried to play it off.

"Not really, Patrick bought some snacks earlier."

"You need dinner regardless," Callum said darkly from behind me.

Ryder seemed to be picking up on what was happening and shot me a sad smile as he pushed a spoonful in his mouth.

I only sighed as shove down as much as I could as fast as I could just to get them to leave me alone. When most of the trey was gone Liam seemed pleased, which was all I needed to push the trey away and lean back against Callum.

As time went on the more my stomach churned.

Skip now if you listened to the warning. There is no shamw in skipping. 

"Did I say you were allowed to eat?" My father's voice filled my head. I flinched without meaning to, catching Callum's attention but he didn't comment on it.

My heart raced as I tried to push it all back down but it didn't feel like it was working.

"Spit it out," his voice seethed. I still fight to push the bile down but I can feel it climbing up more and more with every passing second.

"I didn't say you could eat, spit it out!"

Unable to hold it back anymore, I push myself away from Callum and rush to the bathroom.

"What happened?" I hear him call out as he follows me but I'm already in the bathroom. Part of me is screaming to lock the door but the rest if me knows if I want to make it to the toilet I don't have time.

Callum rushes in just as my head leans over into the bowl but I couldn't stop myself anymore. My fingers dive into my mouth without another thought.

Callum cursed from behind as he tries to pull my hand away. I hear Liam and Ryder rushing but I don't care anymore.

Just as Callum pulls my hand away the bile climbs out of my throat and into the tolite. My hand was long forgotten as Liam cursed and enters the bathroom as well.

One hand rubs my back, another plays with my hair, and the other draws patterns on my hand.

I don't draw back until I've dry heaved for the third time. Even then my head is still leaning on the toilet seat, as my eyes get heavier.

"What in the hell was that?" Callum nearly seethed as he pulled my head back on his shoulder. "You have some explaining to do."

The trigger warning: Eating disorders, gagging, throwing up, a very vivd throwing up scene is in this chapter! If you think you will be trigger just wait for the next chapter. Everything that happened will be expained without the graphic details.