TEACH ME PROFESSOR [Elizabeth Olsen]

Chapter 31 - Knockin' On Heaven's Door

LIZZIE'S POV:

I see them talking, laughing, joking together.
She doesn't even look at me, she's too busy on her, her eyes are just for her.
The brunette touches her shoulder, then her arm, slides her hand several times over her skin and she doesn't seem to mind.
They smile at each other, she blushes embarrassed. It's like if she has forgotten me, even if she has known her for a few minutes.
A strange sense pervades my chest, a weight crushes my heart, i can hardly breathe.

"Let's go see where my room is" says the Hawkeye-girl dragging her with her and disappearing from my view.

"Someone is jealous here" Scarlett's voice brings me back to reality
"Uhm i'm sorry what?" i ask
"God Lizzie, i think everyone could feel your jealousy all over the room, you were glaring at her from meters away" she explains
"I'm not jealous" i affirm
"You're not huh? Then why does it seem to me that you hate seeing them together?"

"It's just-listen we're friends and i just wanna to protect her, that's all" i say annoyed
"Friends? You told me she's your student"
" Scar it's our secret, we have become very close friends in this months but no one should find out" i explain to her
I see her smirking and i raise a eyebrows confused
"What?" i ask
"Nothing it's just- it makes me laugh how you self-convinced of this 'friendship' story" she says giggle
"What are you mean?"
"Liz, you love her" she asserts
"W-what? T-that's not true" for some strange reason i start to get nervous
"Look, i already had my doubts the first time i met her, you were weird next to Robbie and you were jealous of me, you can admit i'm not mad about it, and now about Hailee, you hate seeing her with Y/n and admitting that a beautiful harmony was born between the two of them. You are jealous when someone flirt with her, you hold her close to you for fear that someone may take her away from you and Liz, these are not friend behaviors, but of a person in love. You are in love with her and there's nothing wrong with that but you have to admit it to yourself and then to her or you will both end up suffering" she points out

I don't believe much in what Scarlett just said but those words have moved something inside me that i can't explain.
"Maybe you just need to understand your feelings for her, but move or you will end up losing her and if you don't have the courage to do so, then let her go and make her live her life" she adds then leaves me alone with my thoughts.

I love Robbie
I love my husband and i'm sure of that.

But at the same time i feel this need to be close to y/n, i feel the need of her contact on my body.
I can't deny that i like it when she kisses me or when she touches me, it's pure electricity to me.
Maybe it's just because no one has touched me for so long, no one makes me feel wanted and y/n makes me feel that way.
She makes me feel everything that Robbie no longer makes me feel.

Maybe she's giving me everything i haven't felt in a long time, making me feel young again.

I wanna feel her, that's the truth.
That's so wrong and i know it, but i need her.

After i go back to my room all i do is think about her and Hailee together, what are they doing?
maybe Scarlett is right about this, i can't stand the idea of ​​them together alone.

It's been two hours, what if they're still together?
I decide to go out of my room and go knock on hers in the hope of finding her in front of me and instead Cassie opens the door.
"Liz-uhm Miss Olsen what are you doing here? Do you need something?" she asks worried
"Uhm no i just wanted to know if y/n is here"
Please say yes
"No, i came back a few minutes ago but she's not here"
"Thanks anyway" i say leaving and go back to my room.
All of this is devouring me.
What the hell are they doing alone in Hailee's room? I hear a knock on my door, i get out of bed and go to open it and unexpectedly i find myself in front of me.