TEACH ME PROFESSOR [Elizabeth Olsen]

Chapter 102 - I know the end

LIZZIE'S POV

Days have passed since the last time i spoke to y/n, and not a moment goes by without her crossing my mind.
Each morning i wake up with her name on my lips, only to be greeted by the empty space beside me.
The bed feels cold without her warmth, and the house lives with the absence of her scent.
I try to distract myself with rehearsals and script readings, throwing myself into my work.
But no matter how hard I try, her absence weighs heavy on my heart, a constant reminder of what I miss
I find myself many times isolating, seeking solace in the quiet moments of reflection and every time, even in the stillness, her memory haunts me, her face appearing in the depths of my mind, her laughter echoing in the empty spaces of the house.
I find myself reaching for my phone, longing to hear her voice, to reassure myself that she's okay.
But each time, i hesitate, the fear holding me back.
As the days turn into weeks, the ache in my chest only grows stronger, a silent plea for her return.
I long for the day when I can hold her in my arms again, to tell her how much she means to me, to show her that my love for her is unwavering.

I feel utterly powerless.
I can't shake the feeling that y/n might resent me for not fighting harder for us.
I saw the disappointment in her eyes last time, and it cuts deep.
But she doesn't understand that this is all I can do for now.
Waiting for things to improve feels like torture, and I hate feeling so helpless.
My sisters try to distract me, filling the house with chatter and laughter, but their voices are nothing more than background noise to me.
They try their best to lift my spirits, filling the days with some kind of activities, but their efforts only serve to underscore the emptiness that lingers in my heart.
I smile and nod along, grateful for their company, but inside, i'm consumed.
As the sun sets on another day, I stand at the window, gazing out at the view in front of me.
I close my eyes and imagine her standing behind me, hugging me tightly, her hands in mine.
"I miss you babygirl, i miss you so much" i whisper as a tear rolls on my cheek
"Lizzie come on! Snap out of it. What if we're going out for dinner tonight?" Ashley propose me with her usual optimism
"I appreciate, really, but I'm just not in the mood for going out tonight" i reply offering them a weak smile
"You need to get out of this funk sis" she states worried
"Ash is right, Liz. You can't mope around here forever" MK intervenes, approaches me putting gently a hand on my shoulder
"I know i know and i'll try, i promise" i say, curling my lips
"Well, if you're not up for dinner, how about we watch a movie instead? We can make some popcorn, snuggle up on the couch-"
"Girls really, thanks, but i think I'm just going to lie down for a bit. I'm feeling pretty tired all of a sudden" i cut the conversation, lying
MK looks at me sympathetically, sighing and then nodding
"Fine, but promise us you'll at least try to get some rest, and i mean for real. You've been looking a little worn out lately" MK says
"I will, I promise. Thanks girls, love you" i say
"Love you too Liz" MK kisses my head and so do Ash

As they're heading out of the living room, a sudden idea hits me, so i grab MK's arm to stop her.
"MK wait-" i say, she turns to me, eyebrows raised in question.
"What's up?" she asks
"Uhm- I was wondering...you drove y/n's to her sister house last week, right?" i hesitated, scratching the hangnails on my fingers
She nods confused
"Yeah, why did you ask me that Liz?" she tilts her head trying to catch on what's going on my mind right now
"I just-you see- I was wondering if you had her address" i say, nervously and she closes her eyes, sighing
"My god Liz, what are you planning to do?" she asks exasperated
"Nothing! I just-just want to-you know- check on her, make sure she's okay" I explain
"Look, i get it, okay? You miss her. But you can't just screw it up because of that" she states pretty seriously
"Well, if you put it like this..." i whisper, lowering my gaze to the ground
"Yeah exactly. I understand, i really do Liz. But you perfectly know that the paparazzi are everywhere, and they're just waiting for misstep from you two. That's why you have to follow what the lawyer said"
"I promise I won't do anything stupid. I just need to see her MK, please, even if it's from a distance" I beg her, she hesitates for a moment but then nods reluctantly
"Alright, but please for god's sake, be careful. Don't try to do any bullshit, understand?" she advises me sternly and i nod
"I will, promise. Thanks MK" i say smiling
"Yeah, yeah, don't make me regret it" she says hugging me tightly
"Ah you two, you just need a spark of hope to smile again. So cheesy" she teases me and i giggling
"Cause I love her, MK. She's the woman of my life. I just-want to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her" i state, daydreaming about our future together, but then when I look at MK I see her smirking weirdly
"What?" I ask
She shakes her head keeping that smirk
"Nothing, just run to her"