Mountain Dew Red // Be More Chill + Dear Evan Hansen

👓Sad Song👓

Somewhat based on one of @/madhattey 's comics on Instagram

TRIGGER WARNING:
-Self harm scratches

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Jared, even though he wouldn't admit, was very dependent on Michael. he couldn't remember a time that had ever been this helpless for and over someone.

Michael was infatuating to Jared, with his silky, licorice colored hair and deep brown eyes that left Jared completely and utterly helpless. Then there was his smile, god, his smile. It was perfect. Whenever Michael smiled, his white teeth shone, along with his dimples and small smile lines, one of which was accompanied by one of Michael few freckles.

Everything about Michael made Jared fall in love, thus becoming so dependent on the man.

You and I, we're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky
With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide

And even though Jared loves and trusted his boyfriend, he didn't trust himself. Especially not enough to tell Michael when something was wrong. He didn't want Michael to see him break.

Michael knew how hard it was for Jared to open up and would always try to understand what he could before confronting the other.

So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes

Sometimes it was hard for Michael to piece things together, resulting in him doubting himself.

How was he supposed to help Jared when he couldn't even understand what was hurting him? He didn't think he could, but he always came through to help his lover.

Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song

One day, however, Jared had such a bad day that Michael couldn't even comprehend what had happened.

With you, I fall
It's like I'm leaving all my past and silhouettes up on the wall
With you, I'm a beautiful mess
It's like we're standing hand and hand with all our fears up on the edge

Jared has come home on this day, tears in his eyes and his glasses all foggy.

Michael, who was on the couch of their shared house, was waiting for Jared. He was very confused when he saw Jared's state, though concerned was his most prominent emotion.

So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes

"Hey babe," Michael said once Jared was fully in the house. "How was class?"

Jared gave a shaky nod as he scratched at his wrists. "Yeah, f-fine."

Michael frowned and got up to examine the others arms.

Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song

"Oh god, Jared, what happened?!"

"I uh, kind of freaked out and scratched myself by accident. I haven't had a meltdown in a very long time." Jared have his explanation with tears falling from his eyes. "I-I'm sorry..."

Michael have Jared a soft look. "Baby, you have nothing to be sorry for. But, uh- meltdown?"

You're the perfect melody
The only harmony I wanna hear
You're my favourite part of me
With you standing next to me
I've got nothing to fear

Jared avoided eye contact as he tried to give away as little information as possible, not wanting to remember what he'd happened earlier that day. He also didn't think that Michael would believe him.

"Yeah, just... just some guy hit my breaking point. It's not a big deal, he was just an asshole." He paused. "Besides, if I told you, you wouldn't believe me."

Michael gave Jared a gentle kiss on the head. "I mean, I would. But you don't have to tell me. Just know I love you regardless."

Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song

Jared gave a small smile and blushed. "Pfft, I love you, too, weirdo."

Michael only laughed at that comment.

"Wanna get pizza?" Jared nodded his head. "Heh, Yeah. Can we head to lush-?"

"No."

Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song, I'm just a sad song.

Jared gave a small look of irritation before one thought came to his mind.

Without Michael, Jared was only a sad song.