We lay on the bed and talked for ages . I took another shower , separate from Ace's one of course . The pain of it hadn't kicked in yet. I came out and got changed into one of Ace's few jersey that I now claim as my own and slipped on a pair of underwear before climbing into his bed . I think he was in his office , probably writing about how good our sex was .
A knock interrupted my thoughts . "You can come in" I responded loudly , wondering who it was and making sure that they heard me . "I got your diary thingy that you wanted and Ace is in his office incase you were wondering" Terry smiled handing me the notebook . "Thank you Terry" I grinned happily , taking it from his grip . Terry left , leaving me with my new diary. I stole one of Ace's pens from the drawer in his nightstand and starting jotting down my thoughts .
Dear myself ,
I feel like writing dear diary is too embarrassing to say so I'm going to write to myself . It's true . Only my eyes are allowed to read these words on this page and it feels great so far . I see why Ace does this now and yes he is my inspiration for starting one of these .
I think I need somewhere that I can talk about anything . I can talk about anything to Ace and I know that but I can't talk about Ace to Ace. He just wouldn't understand and he'd be over dramatic because that's one of his traits whether he agrees or not .
Recently Raul died and I don't know how to feel. I haven't heard from my brothers since Ace sent the body back out of respect for them and me . It was kind of him to do that for me , especially since Raul did try and kill him while we slept . Anyways , for some reason I'm not angry at Raul anymore , it's like when he died , my anger disappeared with him . It still hurts though .
I'm not upset about 22 year old Raul dying , I'm upset about the 15 year old dying . I remember looking up to him and the man he was becoming . That 15 year old was still in him , maybe very deep down but he was there . That's why I'm upset .
But other than that whole incident, I'm okay for the first time in .... years . I'm not hurt and I've gone a couple of months without being hurt .... actually that's a lie , my father bet the shit out of me like 3 months ago. Anyways my hand is getting sore . How do I close this off ? Bye .
I shut my journal , admiring the cute pink cover with golden writing . I slipped it under my pillow . I want to play video games now . I got up and walked over to Ace's Xbox and before I knew it , I was playing a shooting game . I think it was called Call of Duty or something like that . No wonder why Ace has such good aim when shooting ; he is level 68 on this game . Okay maybe it's not the same as real life but it's still good .
I started to get really into the game but then I was killed . "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME" I shouted angrily at the tv screen , almost throwing the controller across the room . "That wasn't fair , he didn't even shoot me" I grumbled angrily . I was playing on the easiest level and I still couldn't win .
Ace eventually wandered in . "Why are you yelling?" He asked while staring at his phone . "Shit" I yelled , giving up . "Help" I pouted , holding the controller towards him . "You're playing COD" he spoke surprisingly . "Yep now help , this dude keeps killing me" I hissed evilly at the tv . "Sofia that's you" Ace grinned while shaking his head . "Oh , well they look like me" I grinned , not being able to hold back my smile at my own stupidity.
Ace jumped up next to me , and within 2 minutes , he completed the mission . "What the fuck" I gasped . "Sof , that's the easiest level" he laughed lightly, earning a scowl from me . "Well it was hard" I hissed, taking the controller back. "That's enough, I'm over it" I stood up and immediately regretted it. The pain had finally started to kick in and I knew that in the morning I would be destroyed. My face dropped instantly and Ace shot me a confused look .
"You good?" He asked as I stood as still as a statue . "Yeah" I replied quickly before sitting back on the bed . "I'm good" I groaned slightly as I pulled the blankets back over my legs . Ace gave a weirded out look but quickly brushed it off .
"Look at what I got" I smirked , pulling out my diary . "Copying your very handsome boyfriend I see" Ace put on a proud tone and raised his eyebrows. "Very handsome yes , copying no , I'd say more like inspired" I muttered with a grin , sliding the diary back under my pillow . "That's a very good hiding place" Ace said cheekily . I shot him a glare before he grabbed me , pulling me into his arms . I hummed in satisfaction, the feeling of love lingering in my chest .
Ace's eyes were closed as he held me tighter . A moment of silence had passed with me and Ace just cherishing eachother's embrace .
"You know" Ace paused for a moment. "I've never felt like I belonged anywhere. Not at home , not in the Mafia , nowhere. But now I know where I belong ; I belong with you" he had a certain vulnerability in his voice while he spoke. I gave him a soft smile before I pecked his cheek and shutting my eyes .
She was falling asleep in my arms . I can't deny that I love when she sleeps in my arms . It drives me insane how I'm her safe place , I'm the place she would run to if the world was going to end . I'm never letting her go ; She can leave me if she wants , and I won't stop her but I'll never truly let her go . I can't erase the love I feel when she sleeps on my chest or how she looks when she first wakes up or even the way she plays with her hands ; as much as it annoys me .
But now that I've gotten so used to loving her , that if she ever leaves , I don't know if I'll be able to fill the hole that will be in my chest. I stroked a loose strand of her hair behind her ear . "I'm sorry for everything before and everything that might happen , just know , I will love you through all of it" I whispered gently as she slept on my chest . I got no response but I needed to say it , whether she was awake or asleep.
Yes this was the chapter that was half done and accidentally published and then unpublished so a lot of people were confused 😂 anyways , do any boys/men read my book , I'm just curious ?
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[COMPLETE][EDITING] Ace Hernandez, the Mafia King, known as the Devil. Sofia Diaz, known as an angel. The two are arranged to be married, forced by their fathers, joining the two Mafia's. But Sofia eventually learns, even the devil was once an an...