(a/n second part to 'guilt'! read that first!~ aLSO READ THE A/N AT THE END FOR A SURPRISE!)
after two weeks, yoongi had made a decision. it was extremely difficult and making the decision involved a hell of a lot of thinking and crying. but eventually, he came to a conclusion.
to: jiminie
come over, we need to talk.
jimin stared down at his phone screen for what seemed like hours. he had been waiting so long for yoongi to contact him. and words couldnt explain how much he missed him. once he snapped out of it, he proceeded to get dressed and make his trip to the apartment. it felt like he hadnt been there in ages. when jimin made it to the door, he hesitated. even though he wont admit it, he was scared. he was scared shitless of what yoongi would say. would he end it? jimin didnt know if he could live if that happened. but he took a deep breath, and knocked. it was silent, and jimin felt his heart fall. but when he heard some shuffling and the unlocking of a door,he straightened himself up again and looked ahead.
when yoongi had thought about how this talk would go in his mind, he pictured something along the lines of him yelling at jimin and just getting all his pent up frustration towards him out. but thats not exactly what happened. because apparently, yoongi in his head was very different from yoongi in real life. the moment yoongi saw jimin, he let out a breath that felt like he had been holding ever since he left. then he grabbed a fist full of his shirt and threw jimin into his arms.
honestly, yoongi had no idea what he was doing. he was supposed to be pissed at jimin. and he was. but he just missed him so, so much. and he just wanted to hold him for a second, and try and pretend that all of this didnt happen and his little jiminie was in his arms. they stood for a moment, in each others silent embrace. jimin felt his eyes well up with tears, but they quickly went away when yoongi pulled back.
"hey." yoongi sighed as he looked at jimin for the first time in weeks. "he-hey." jimin stuttered stupidly. he mentally cringed at his pathetic sounding voice. yoongi silently moved to the side and gestured for jimin to come in. once he did, yoongi shut the door and walked down the hall, jimin following close behind. when they both comfortably sat on the small couch in the living room, yoongi began to speak.
"jimin. you know i love you, right? because i really, really do. always have. but you-" yoongi took a sharp breath "-you hurt me. you hurt me so much that i thought my heart physically broke in my chest. do you know how much i've slept these past couple weeks? eight hours. thats it. in two weeks, i only slept eight whole hours. you know why? because i cant sleep without you. and some days i want nothing more than to punch you square in the face for what you did to me. to us. but other days i just want you to hug me and tell me that you really do care." yoongi stopped for a moment to look up at jimins face. jimin was sitting, watching yoongi intently with tears threatening to spill from his eyes.
"what you did was wrong. it was so fucking wrong. you and i both know that. we both also know that i would never even think about doing that to you. and it fucking tore me apart knowing that you did it to me." yoongi took another deep breath to stop himself from crying "and everything in my head is really messy right now. but i know one thing for sure. i love you. so- so i want to try this again. it will be slow, and i am not forgiving you yet. but i am saying that i dont know if i can survive with out you."
jimin moved his hands to wipe away the tears on his cheeks and the corner of his mouth lifted up slightly to reveal a lopsided smile. "slow. i can do that." he said quietly. "okay. okay good. so, i- i guess that means that we're back." yoongi said, trying to sort everything out in his head. "we're back?" jimin sighed happily. yoongi only nodded in response. "i love you." jimin said, looking at yoongis pale face. "i know you do." yoongi smiled lazily and decided that he didnt need to think so much anymore. because he had his jiminie back, and thats all he really needed.
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a/n hey lovelys! did you like this ending to 'guilt'? i hope it made you guys happy! oH AND ALSO GUYS I JUST PUT OUT A YOONMIN SHORT STORY AND I PUT OUT ALL THE CHAPTERS AT ONCE SO YOU CAN JUST READ THE COMPLETED STORY!~ I HOPE YOU LIKE IT, I WORKED HARD ON IT! GO CHECK IT OUT!~
lots of love, namjoon1994 !
