and jimin knew this feeling in the pit of his stomach. it was the same feeling he got when he sat with his mother in the morning, and the feeling he got when he watched himself in the mirror that was reflecting his dance moves. the feeling that pooled in his stomach at the sight of yoongi, was love. but jimin couldnt love, not like that. because soon he would be off to college and he didnt know how long he would be gone.
"isnt the sunset beautiful?" yoongi smiled as he looked out one night, sat next to jimin. jimin sucked in a sharp breath, his lungs aching. but not nearly as beautiful as you, jimin wanted to say to him. but he curled his hands beside himself, keeping his mouth glued shut. he coughed loudly then, making yoongi turn to him. "yeah, its nice." was all he managed to say. his love for the older boy made him feel like his lungs were collapsing.
9;08pm
i miss you.
jimin looked at the message on the screen, tears threatening to fall from his tired eyes. despite the swelling in his heart, he shoved his phone back in his pocket without responding. i hope you know that i miss you too, was what he whispered into the frigid night air, hoping that yoongi would know how he felt even without him telling him. he couldnt know, though. because all he knew was that jimin wouldnt speak to him. jimin cried on that park bench for the first time in months. he just wanted to love.
"jimin are you mad at me?" yoongi asked him one evening, three days before he was to leave for college. jimin didnt look him in the eye when he slowly shook his head. im not fucking mad at you, i just love you a little too much. jimin thought to himself, but kept the words in. yoongi stood in silence before him, shifting his weight awkwardly from one leg to another. "i love you." was what came out of yoongis mouth to fill the deafening silence. jimin still didnt look up to him, he was having trouble breathing all of a sudden. he just shook his head again, and turned away.
three days later, jimin sat on the train headed for seoul. he had said goodbye to everyone that morning, including yoongi. he had also still kept his feelings to himself despite the fact that yoongi had already confessed to him. ten minutes into the train ride, thoughts of yoongis pretty smile brought jimin to tears. so he sent him a text, maybe even the last text he would send him for a while.
7;32am
i love you more.
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a/n whAT THE HECK WAS THIS
lots of love, namjoon1994 !
