More than friends- MATTIA POLIBIO 😩😍

Chapter 42:

YOUR P.O.V.

As I walk out of school I can't stop thinking about what he said

He said he didn't have feelings for me

Was he lying?

No, why would he be? It explains everything that he's done to me anyways

But maybe it was my fault that he did any of it. I could've tried harder

How,though?

I didn't do anything wrong

I begin to walk down the block alone. I don't know what I want right now. Or what I should do. What am I even feeling?

I don't know

That's my fucking problem

"Hey!" a voice yells. I turn around and squint my eyes as my hair blows in my face.

I see a black car and then the windows roll down revealing Aiden

"Hey" I say smiling immediately.

"Why're you walking alone?"

I shrug

"C'mon" he says. "Get in. I'll drop you off"

"I really don't wanna bother you though-"

"Bother me? You're not bothering me,Dawn. Get innn" he says smiling

I walk to the passengers side and he unlocks the door for me to enter

As I sit down and shut the door he begins to drive off. I look around.

But I notice something in his lap. It's a bag filled with something green. I furrow my brows "you smoke weed?" I says exhaling

He looks over at me through the mirror and smiles. "Occasionally"

"Why?" I ask.

"What do you mean , why?"

I shrug

"Does it bother you?"

"Mhm" I say glancing over at him. His pupils are dilated a lot. And the inner corners of his eyes are red

"It shouldn't. It's just weed,nothing scary" he says laughing

"My dad used to smoke" I begin. "Before he and my mom got divorced. It was really addicting and it messed him up completely"

"Oh" he says sympathetically. "I'm sorry, I won't do it when I'm around you" he double parks the car randomly and places the bag in the back of the vehicle

I nod slightly as I look out the window. "Thanks"

"So how was your day becaus-"

I tune him out as I notice a familiar face. Tall. Slim. Soccer uniform. Heavenly smile. It's Mattia.

But as he keeps walking a figure of a girl becomes clearer.

Tight clothes. Brown hair. Milky skin. Do I even need to describe the rest of her?

Of course it's Jenna

She has him wrapped around her finger so easily. I don't know why. What makes her so special? She's toxic and I thought he knew that.

He knew about her and Mar. He knew about how she treated me. He knew she hated me and how it hurt me

Was he even ever on my side?

"Dawn" Aiden says loudly. I turn to him immediately.

"Hm?"

"Are you okay?" He asks

"Yeah" I say glancing out the window again. Mattia's getting closer to where the cars double parked. He's laughing with Jenna. He seems so into whatever conversation they're having

I look back at Aiden and see he's staring out the window too.

"Aiden?" I ask staring into his eyes. And then he leans in quickly and lays his lips onto mine, kissing me in a way I can't describe.

I don't know what's happening

He places his hand on my neck lightly but places a little pressure on it enough for me to lose my breathe

Do I want this?

I pull away startled. "What was that!" I say looking into his eyes. He looks at me confused

His pupils are still dilated but he looks out the window. I turn to it and notice Mattia staring right at me, mouth agape. And he frowns as he continues walking past the car

I turn to Aiden wincing. "Are you kidding me?"

"That was to make him jealous. I thought we said we were doing that" he says smirking

I shake my head. "No—no I don't think.. I don't think we should do this anymore"

"What? Why?" He says shaking his head

"Because" i say frowning. "I should go" I clutch onto my bag and pull the car door lever

"Dawn, seriously?" he says trying to hold my hand but I ignore him as I walk down the block and the rest of the way home

I don't know what I want.