Tu Jo Mile Jindari Jannata ve Jannata...❣️ #sidnaaz

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I woke up to him shaking me out of sleep, we were by a body of water but I didn't know exactly where thanks to the dark of the night. However the sky seemed brighter than everyday.. indicating that we were away from the city.

Si - "Baby aaja... we're here."

I blink my eyes a few times adjusting to the surroundings before stepping out.
He'd rolled up the sleeves of his coat, looking even better than he'd looked with them down. "Sidharth? Ye kaha hai hum?"

Si - "Batata hu chal toh.."

I let him walk me to wherever he wanted us to be. I could feel my feet dip into sand as he helped walk over a curb. Why in the world were we on a beach this late?

Si - "Aakhein band kr..?"

S - "Kyun? Kullu tu kr kya raha hai?"

Si - "Shehnaaz? Jo kaha hai kro.."

S - "Main gir jaungi.."

Si - "Main girne dunga tujhe? Nhi Na? Aakhein band kr."

I closed my eyes hesitantly stepping forward. I still had no clue where I was. I wasn't scared or anything. I trusted him with me more than I trusted myself but it felt weird not knowing. We walked a few meters away, and I could smell the soft scent of something. He stood me close to something wooden, walking away himself.

Si - "5 minutes baby."

I nod slightly letting him walk away. There was a soft breeze hitting against my body, we were really close to water. The waves were loud and clear... crashing against the sand. I had no idea what he was doing. No idea at all and that's what scared me. I didn't know what was going to happen ahead and my expectations were soaring at heights I'd never seen before.

Maybe he was going to or maybe he wasn't.. or maybe....... I hated how I wasn't scared to plant seeds that I knew might not grow. I kept my eyes closed, wrapping my arms around myself taking in the scent of the ocean. The sand was soaking into my heels, my feet freezing cold. There was no way there was anyone other than the two of us here. It was much to quiet. I let myself think about the past few days as I waited, I'd finally felt how amazing it is to find someone who wanted to hear about all the things floating around my mind. Whether it was about the past or the future. I was a strong person but once in a while I needed someone to fill me with the warmth that I needed to live on. He'd become that person. I couldn't help but smile... the moment I'd given up and made my career my only priority, I'd found the perfect answer to all the times I'd asked for someone. The words played over in my mind, the last night I'd cried myself to sleep - Kyi vaar zindagi ch apna sab kuch Kho janda Te apa kuch v nhi kr skde.. Pr fer v rabb chotiya chotiya khusiya de k tuhadi umeedan nu harn nhi dinda.
( Kabhi kabhi zindagi mein humara sab kuch Kho jaata hai aur hun kuch bhi nhi kr paate... lekin fir bhi rabb choti choti khushiyan de kr humari ummedon ko haarne nhi deta) - so much had changed ever since. I'd lost my everything but earned him in return. That was enough.

"Tere Liye Main Jaha Se Takraungi
Sab Kuchh Khoke Tujhko Hi Paungi
Dil Banke Main Dil Dhadkaungi
Main Tera Ban Jaaungi
Main Tera Ban Jaungi"

Sidharth :

I didn't know if what I was doing was enough. It felt too simple but that's just how we both were. Sure she was extra sometimes but she liked the simple life she lived. I'd had to control myself the whole day, half of the reason being why I'd decided to stay out the whole day. The other half was in-front of me. Perfectly set up, the breeze only making it better. I'd left her a few feet away in order to give it its final touches and calm my own nerves. I was too nervous and I didn't want that to ruin what I was about to do. This was the first time I'd even thought about something so much. I looked back seeing her calm face, cheeks tinted pink due to the wind or maybe something she was thinking. Her face shined in the soft white light of the moon, brightening her features. She was beautiful, that was no surprise but it'd occurred to me tonight at how she was beautiful in everyones eyes. Every dude I met couldn't help but stare a second longer. I couldn't blame them but I didn't like it. Not at all. They'd spent the whole night staring at her with such lust that it was almost disgusting to watch them look over her like that. I was hoping she didn't see this coming especially after what I'd done at the party. I wanted this to be both an assurance of trust and well... I wanted to see the look of surprise on her face, but something told me she'd been thinking about it the same way as me. Maybe a little less.. but close enough.  I checked over everything one last time before walking over to grab her.