A Glimpse Into My Brain

What Would They Do?

I wonder what my doctors would do if I told them I'm scared to sleep
Would they tell my parents?
Would they tell other people?
Would they need to tell other people?
Like, legally need to?
Would they make me go to therapy?
Would they make me tell my parents?

I want to tell them
I feel bad for them
I'm self sabotaging because of fear
They should know
Maybe they could help me?
They probably couldn't
They definitely can't now
I'm not planing on telling them
I can't tell them
They'd worry
And there's probably protocol in place for when these things happen
And they're probably not in my favour
So I won't tell them
I'll keep lying
And I'll keep pretending that I don't know why I can't sleep

(16/6/21)