A Glimpse Into My Brain

I Don't Know Why

TW: suicidal thoughts

There are two people arguing in my brain
Their brain? I don't know
I know this is wrong
I'm not supposed to be here
I don't know why I am
I need to pack my things
I'm being a bad person

One of them is trying to rationalize how bad they are
The other one is trying to make them see sense

We're all bad
We all have the same brain
We're all bad people
We can't be good
I know that
They know that
So I don't know why we try to pretend

At least if we showed them they'd hate us
Then we could die
I could kill us all
And no one would be sad
Because we showed them how bad we are
And monsters don't deserve to live
So I don't know why we are

(25/6/21)