A Glimpse Into My Brain

Confusion

TW: suicidal thoughts

I don't know
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know my emotions
I
Don't
Know

I should
I know I should
But I don't
I can't know

My brain doesn't work like that
It doesn't tell me things
It will also tell me things I don't want to hear

I don't know if I want to know
If I start knowing and don't like it
I might not be able to stop
And if I can't stop I'll kill myself

Probably
I can hardly handle everything when I don't know
Imagine what it would be like if I did know

(23/5/21)