A Glimpse Into My Brain

Faith

I'm losing faith in a god
I wanted to believe
And for a while I did
Even though they had never answered me before

I was young
Naive
So I believed
Believed that some higher being took time out of thier life to care about me
Believed that someone cared
That someone was looking out for me

But then things happened
I've been losing faith slowly
But it all came crashing down recently
It took realizing that no on was watching over the people I love for me to lose faith completely
I don't particularly care if anyone is watching out for me
I deserve everything that happened and is happening now

But if they won't help my friends?
Then I don't think they exist
My people deserve love and good
They don't deserve the things that have happened to them
So I lost faith
I'm surprised it took so long

(25/6/21)