A Glimpse Into My Brain

Hell

TW: cancer

I'm worried as hell
She has an inspection tomorrow
Checking her digestive system for cancer
The doctors don't even know what's happening anymore
The doctors don't know what's happening
The doctors
They're supposed to know how to help
But they don't
It's been four and a half years
We're all exhausted

Dad's more stressed
When he's stressed he's more dangerous
Mum's worried
Slightly stressed
Somewhat annoyed
I understand it all

I don't even know how I feel
Not an unusual occurrence
But you'd think that with something this big I'd at least feel something discernable
But I don't
I know I should
But I can't

(27/7/21)