How To Live As A Writer In A Fantasy World[part1]

Chapter 68: Storm (3)

Even in the moment when I realized my status once again, Rina didn't raise her head. Looking straight ahead, I saw her golden hair pouring down like a waterfall.

It seems like she has no intention of raising her head until I speak. Although I cannot see her face and do not know what expression she is making, she must be nervous.

First, I will accept Rina's apology. If I don't accept the apology while the imperial princess bows her head, it will become a problem in itself.

And at the moment when I don't accept the apology, the emotion that has been crawling up inside me will be expressed. I haven't been able to accurately understand the nature of this emotion until now, but Rina's apology allowed me to realize it.

Power

As I was reborn into this world, the thing I despised the most was the unjust power structure, yet ironically, the emotion bubbling up in my heart right now is the desire for power.

In my past life, I was just a writer who enjoyed writing, but now I have become someone who can dominate the world. Moreover, the demon princess and the imperial princess are favoring me while adopting a humble attitude.

Who wouldn't be swayed by this ambition? I can say with certainty that no one can resist the irresistible force of power, even someone who originally disliked it.

Therefore, if I take one more step forward here, I will be swallowed up by power. However, power always leads people to ruin.

'I want something other than power...'

I said to Rina, who was waiting for my answer with her head down.

"Please raise your head, Rina."

"... ... "

As I spoke calmly, Rina slowly raised her head to face me, but her expression was very dark, and her once-beautiful features had lost their luster, as if she had gone through all sorts of trials and tribulations.

I didn't know what to say, so I hesitated for a moment before speaking quietly.

"Since Rina is aware of her own mistakes, there's nothing to say about that, but... it's a bit too late, isn't it?"

"... ... "

"If you wanted to apologize, it should have been when you called me and my sister, not now. If you had apologized then, Miss Rina, then I would have felt even a little bit of sincerity in your apology. Otherwise, you should have apologized as soon as volume 10 of Xenon's Biography was released, or at least before the situation blew up. If you apologize now, I cannot see it in a positive light, no matter what."

As I spoke slowly and thoughtfully, Rin's expression grew darker and she seemed uneasy, as if she didn't think I would accept her apology.

I paused for a moment, clasped my hands together, and took some time to think. I needed to organize my thoughts in my head.

After about a minute had passed, I glanced at my reflection in the coffee cup before opening my mouth.

"To be honest, I never imagined the situation would become so serious. I simply declared a hiatus for my studies. And as you can see from what the author's note said, I was writing Xenon's Biography just as a hobby, without any purpose or ideology."

I had already told this to Marie. Glancing at her, I could see that she was looking at me with a face full of trust.

I almost reached out to her face, but I restrained myself since it would be inappropriate given the situation. Even in this awkward situation, I could feel the gravity of the moment.