Feelings

Going Through It |17|

3 days later.
Monday, 3;46am
Jacy POV

I sat on the couch rubbing my face while smoking a blunt, I haven't got to sleep in these three days that out of no where Kimani just goes back to her abusive ex.

Something didn't sit right with me about it and it was stressing me out to the max. This ain't even like mani to do this shit, it was just weird.

Gio had been at Masami house aswell, I couldn't function or think straight over this. I smoked off the rest of the blunt then I got up.

Thanksgiving was this Thursday and my moms was having a dinner at her house in Hollywood. I wanted to bring Kimani with me but now I don't even feel like going.

This shit was eating me up inside and she ain't even my girl. It was just hard to digest, Ian wanna even assume the worse but at the same time I did.

I knew something didn't feel right with her all of a sudden going to the club but it turns out that she was going to talk things through with that nigga and it upset me. Ian want her with him and I didn't want her moving in with him, she was with me and I wanted her to stay.

I left my room and went downstairs to the garage and hopped in my black Ferrari and drove to the strip club. This wasn't even a good idea cause I smoke 9 blunts straight and I was off my ass.

But I needed a stress reliever and this is going back to my old ways, but right now? I didn't give a fuck. I was angry, sad, annoyed and all these other negative emotions and I didn't even know what to do.

About 25 minutes later I reached the strip joint and went in. It wasn't as packed in here but that was fine with me. I went into VIP and asked one of the dancers for a private dance.

She took me to the back and danced on me for a few minutes while I touched and examined her body. She turned around and whispered into my ear.

"You want a little extra pleasure?" She spoke smirking.

I nodded my head slowly and she got on her knees while unbuckling my pants.

Kimani POV - 10:00am

I spit back out the food in his face as he was feeding me. "Fuck you shia" I spoke angrily.

He wiped his face and but the bowl of soup down on the dressing table. "I tried to be nice to you bitch for these three days, but now you tempting the fuck outta me" he said.

"And what? Do something about it, rape me if you want to but just know that when I'm outta here? Your 6 feet under" I said looking dead in his eyes.

He laughed while holding his mouth. "You always been funny Kimani" he spoke.

He went to the bottom of the bed and unchained my feet, I tried to kick him but he held my legs apart.

"You off your period now right? It's been three days" he spoke.

I stayed silent as he quickly unbuckled his pants having his hard member pop out and held my legs open wide.

"Get off of me" I struggled to kick.

He pushed my panties to the side and forced himself into me. I screamed and got flash backs of when I did stay with him and the first time he forced himself on me.

2 hours later..

"That's right, open yo fucking mouth and if you bite my shit, ima knock yo ass the fuck out" he said forcing to put his thang in my mouth.

I felt disgusted as he kept moving back and forth putting it into my mouth until a knock was at the door downstairs.

He kissed his teeth. "Fuck, you lucky" he said removing himself and getting situated.

I watched as he left and I spit out the taste of him on the ground. Lord do I hope that Jacy coming to save me and rescue the day.

Of course that wasn't him cause my dreams never want to come true. Instead, I saw the same dude that was at Donny house and Shia walk in.

"The fuck is he doing here?" I questioned with attitude.

"For entertainment sweet heart" Shia smiled licking his lips.

"So this what y'all bitches do? Set girls up that left you and then do this to them? Y'all are sick" I cussed.

"Shut the fuck up" Shia said to me.

"Suck my fucking dick bitch" I spat.

He scoffed then looked at the dude. "Chris what you think we should do to my sweet ole girlfriend" he said.

Chris smirked back. "Ion know, shitt since I left prison I haven't had sex with a woman in a minute" he spoke.

"You my homeboy so why don't we do this shit together?" Shia asked him.

"Word? Ight lets do this shit" they both said coming near me.

"Get the hell away from me!" I screamed as they started touching me.

Jacy POV

I just reached into the house after being out all night and I went to to my room and started to roll up another blunt.

My phone started to ring and the name Twin❤️, appeared on the screen and I answered it.

"Hello? Jacy" she spoke.

"What?" I spoke.

"Keep in mind that your son has been here for three days straight, what the fuck is going on with you?" She said getting an attitude.

"Sami ion wanna hear the attitude and allat fuck shit, I told you I'm going through something right now and I don't want him seeing me like this" I explained.

"So what the hell you gone do? Leave Gio with his aunt until your better? Jacy fuck that. Kimani left and that's her dumb decision. Yall wasn't together so why the fuck are you stressing out about it. You didn't even say you liked her" she cussed.

"I don't care mani, stop talking all this stupid shit. What did you want?" I rolled my eyes.

"I wanna know when you gone start being a father again and come get your son" she spoke.

"I told you the verdict, hop off my dick bye" I said then hung up.

Ion got no damn time right now, ima roll a blunt and smoke it and I might even smoke three more since I'm just on a roll here.

Kimani POV- 3 hours passing

I sobbed to myself as Shia chained back up my legs to the bed, both of these bitches took advantage of me and I couldn't do shit about it.

"Next time you shouldn't talk reckless and obey me and that won't happen. Come on Chris" Shia spork as they walked out of the room.

Lord just please bless me right now, just a small miracle is fine by me.

Minutes later shia came back in the room and sat in the chair beside the bed and looked at me.

"You know, I hated when I had to put my hands on you. I really did, I regretted it every time I did it. But it was for your own good" he shrugged.

"Get out my face" I said looking away from him.

"See, right there... that's the problem, why do you have such an attitude with me? Don't you love me?" He asked.

I looked over at him. "Are you crazy? Like are you literally crazy? I stopped loving you a while ago and I have a attitude cause you and some random ass nigga just raped and degraded me not to mention that you got me chained to the bed like an animal" I went off.

"Don't be like that doll face, your only saying that cause it's a phase and your running through a bunch of emotions. I'll leave you alone to get your thoughts together and I'll come back and bathe you" he smiled then walked out of the room.

He's sick. Really, really fucking sick and it don't even make sense. I need to find a way out of here stat.

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*this chapter was a filler btw ima post the next chapter in a few minutes or tmr morning*

*sorry for any mistakes, on filler chapters I just wanna hurry up and get it posted*