Healing Love (BxBxMxM)

Chapter 60: Late night talks

Back to Aspen's Pov

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We had sat in silence together, The light on as I did my best to avoid his eye contact.

''Aspen. . .'' Emory started, His tired voice grim sounding.

I ducked my head, Expecting him to be annoyed that I was disturbing his sleep.

He let out a long and slow sigh, Sounding tired before he hesitantly placed a hand on my side, Making me shiver at the un-expected contact.

''You are scared of being left alone, Correct?'' Emory checked, Laying back down behind me, His arm loosely resting over me.

I shrugged slightly, Hoping he'd drop the very uncomfortable subject.

He didn't.

''Why'' Was his simple question as yet again, The distant floor became very very interesting.

When I was quiet for a long while, Emory let out another small sigh, This one wasn't a tired sigh but more so a. . .Disappointed sigh.

I felt my heart clench as he sat up and turned off the light, Accepting the fact that I wasn't going to explain.

He's disappointed in me?. . .I messed up. . .Why do I always mess up. . .

 I could feel warm liquid starting to leave trails down my face as I did my best to not tremble in fear.

Logically. . .I had no reason as of yet to fear Emory . . .He hadn't hurt me or anything. . .But then again. . .I wasn't sure if he had ever been clearly disappointed in me before. . .

I felt bad for making him disappointed. . .I also felt scared since my dad was always disappointed in me. . .His disappointment always ended in pain for me. . .

Will Emory's disappointment end in pain?

I was being paranoid. . .Clearly so. . .But some of my fears were somewhat based in reality. . .

I thought I was being discreet about my distress. . .But, Clearly I wasn't.

Emory's hand reached up, Gently brushing tears from my face as tingles arched out from our connected skin.

''Shhh, It is alright. . .Breath'' Emory murmured quietly against my ear as he held me close, Continuing to gently brush the tears from my face.

He held me close and waited out my tears.

As soon as I settled down, I started to feel a bit ashamed.

It was late. . .And here I was. . .Keeping Emory awake dealing with my pathetic emotions.

Before things could get much more pathetic, Emory gently, But firmly, Rolled me over so I was reluctantly face to chest with him.

Closing my eyes, I buried my face against his chest, Hoping he wouldn't question why I was upset.

He tightened his grip on me before slowly sitting up, Tugging me up with him.

I tried to curl in on myself slightly, But Emory kept holding me upright.

The bedroom was dark enough that I couldn't really make out his facial features, So I had no clue if he was upset about me waking him yet again or not.

 He probably hates me. . .

Emory gently grabbed onto my face before holding me at an arm's length so he could study my expression as tingles spread out across my face.

''Aspen, What is the matter?'' Emory questioned, Refusing to let me look away from him, Moving so he was constantly in my line of sight.

I shrugged slightly, I was feeling overwhelmed.

This is now the fourth time my emotions have been strained today. . .My feelings felt raw and sensitive.

First at school, Secondly when I was home alone. . .Again when Emory started questioning me and now. . .

With how raw my emotions felt, I felt like it wouldn't take anything more than a slight frown from Emory to make me break down.

His grip on my face tightened, His other hand moving up to rest on the side of my neck.

The further contact made even more tingles dance across my skin, Making me shiver at the borderline overstimulation.

''I-I'm fine'' I whispered quietly, Moving to tug away from him when he moved his hand from the side of my neck to the nape of my neck, Keeping me in place.

I could just barely see Emory's eyes narrow before he slowly shook his head.

''I am not a moron, Something is clearly the matter'' Emory said bluntly, His tone gentle though despite how stern he sounded.

''Setzling What is the matter? Is it because of that other boy?'' Emory questioned, Releasing my face and neck, Placing his hands instead on my back.

''I-It's nothing! Seriously. . .It's nothing. . .'' I insisted, Whispering the last part as I stared down at my lap.

Emory fell silent, Just staring at me silently.

After a few seconds, I started to squirm nervously as he continued to stare silently at me.

Closing my eyes tightly, I shrugged, Folding under his stare.

''I-I'm just. . .Just overwhelmed. . .I-I'm sorry-'' I whispered, My voice shaking before my voice cut off as Emory gently ran his fingers through my hair, Gently holding onto my head as tingles raced down my scalp.

''Shh, You do not have to apologize'' He assured gently, His voice barely above a whisper, Forcing me to have to pay close attention to him to hear what he was saying.

Slowly, I calmed down further, Feeling drained and tired once again as Emory continued to hold me close.

''What, Caused you to get overwhelmed?'' He questioned once I started to drift off, His voice quiet and gentle as I leaned heavily on him.

I was quiet for a long while as I debated weather or not he'd be able to figure out if I were to lie about what had started my emotions overwhelming me. 

Deciding, He'd most likely see right through my lie, I reluctantly inhaled before quietly answering him.

''I. . .Made you disappointed. . .'' I murmured quietly, Nervously rubbing at my arms as I felt him remove one of his hand's from my back, Rubbing tiredly at his eyes.

''I see. . .'' He muttered grimly. . .

It's gonna be a long night. . .

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