I blocked him I really did that. If I was honest I missed him, real bad. Like obviously if I miss him and continue seeing his messages with his smooth talk and shit I'm gonna give in. The thing is I think we do seriously need a little break. I especially don't want to hold down Handro from his music career he tends to stop shit for me but he should know it's his career he risks.
I then unblocked after 2 hours wanting to see what was his response was.
Unblock
Handro 🙃💚- I was high I didn't know any of the shit I was doing mamas swear!
Handro 🙃💚- I Just it's hard to not smoke and shit but I stopped for you but we argued and shit got outta hand
Handro 🙃💚- wow you blocked me?????
Handro 🙃💚- I just want to meet with you Ight cmon
Handro 🙃💚- fuckkkk
Handro 🙃💚- ima fucking be withchu in a couple days idk how but ima be there sooooo idc man I miss yo ass
Me- geesy?
Handro 🙃💚- mamas can we talk now
Me- we r
Handro 🙃💚- call?
Me- idk
Handro 🙃💚- talk to me I wanna know what you thinking
Handro 🙃💚- I wanna be with u rn
Me- I'm thinking that I'm dumb for answering tbh
Me- I still care about u so don't trip
Handro 🙃💚- I love you too mamas
Handro 🙃💚- we good?
Me- idk man but I can't stop liking u like that quick yknow
Handro 🙃💚- Yeah I feel ya
Me- ima meet up with u but do me a favor ?
Handro 🙃💚- course what's that
Me- I need a plane ticket back cuz I'm pretty sure you can't do a double in the ticket but I'll pay you back
Handro 🙃💚- Ight
Handro 🙃💚- Veronica showed up to my house earlier now that I look at her you fucked her shit up!!
Me- 😂 how bad?
Handro 🙃💚- how you don't know?? 💀💀
Me- was too mad
Handro 🙃💚- awe u caree
Me- or bc she pushed me and shit
Handro 🙃💚- fr?
Me- yea
Handro 🙃💚- I miss u and shit but I gotta go perform like rn!
Handro 🙃💚- love you
Seen
I sighed but wasn't sure what day I wanna go. I don't think I'm ready but ik I'll go eventually. He seemed so far away through text.
I then knocked out.
12:09pm
I then woke up to my phone ringing and soon wake up grabbing my phone and see Handro was calling. Should I answer I'm not ready for that.
Hello
"Just wanted to hear you" he says
Cute
"Man cmon don't talk like that isn't it obvious I miss your voice" he whines.
What you doing
"In my hotel room bored as a mother fucker" he laughs lightly.
Can I tell you something
"I'm hearing" he replies
Um so I don't know these pass few hours/ days or whatever I been really dumb
"Niggas involved" he ask
No and yes
He then sighs "what's up"
I kinda took LSD and tripped the fuck out then I almost shot a guy like hours later or days i don't know to be honest
"What the guy dude"
He was basically cat calling and shit
"Oh you know I miss you mamas" he brings up and I get annoyed real quick.
Why was Veronica calling you, that whole night what happened man
"Was waiting for you ask"
So what happened
"She called saying she changed and missed me and she said she was gonna show up and fuck with me for fucking with her. Then when I got drunk and shit well I basically don't know what happened and I slept with Veronica thinking it was you but when I realized I kicked her out... naked"
I then snort and I can just picture him smile.
That's what that bitch gets
"When you coming"
Not yet I still need space I'm low key hella hurt and I get your side but I don't know I don't wanna keep you down either go out have fun yknow
"You are fun though"
Yeah but I just I don't know
"I miss you and I know you miss me, we both sorry so why not talk . Tell me how hurt are you"
Handro I know you hate feeling vulnerable but I do too and I just gosh I just hate how I can't help you
"Oh I see"
"That one day when I said 'you can't help me' I just was depressed man because before Veronica called she sis d she loved me and I flipped out"
I could've help though
"Didn't wanna worry you, had enough yourself"
Right well why don't you want a break
"The question is why do you want a break"
To get myself together before I'm with someone, felt kinda rushed don't you think
"No not really, and I don't because I really deadass love you so like it hard not calling you mine and well because we can work through this"
Both good reasons but mine always gonna work
"How come"
Because you can ask but I have to say yes
"True but why wouldn't you"
I care about you but like I said before I just wanna figure myself out
"What you confuse about"
Everything really but you well at times but I usually have you figured out
"Gotta go but remember your only mine" he then hangs up and I roll my eyes. He would end on a corny note.
Honestly I just want space from everyone and I so t know why but after a while of thinking I realized I'm just pushing people away really.
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Boe
Teen FictionI was always confused if I was his hoe or if I was truly his boo like he said I was.
